what am I supposed to do
all I've been doing is trying to center myself
lower the weight
so my gravity can focus me
calm myself down, write while I'm alone
find secrets to keep
but all this is just confusing me
because I know I want you but
I don't know if I should have you
the nights are getting later and I want to drink so badly
I want to be so intoxicated right now
and I sure as hell don't think I should be posting this poem
on the internet where you can see it.