i woke up today to the world drinking tea and chaos, as if nothing has changed, like the ground hasn't collided and caused the water to rise or the fact that the government just may not care about us at all. the debt we are in could last us a century, and i'm not talkin' about the government funds, i'm worried about how luck is never on our side of the dead green grass but, we can get through this. i've never been one for religion, so when i catch myself saying that i have faith, it's feels like marbles in my mouth and the glass is melting to form a sculpture of how we could be little or we could be big, but only time will tell in between the seconds, and that moment we know which we are, i'll turn to you and tell you if the faith is still crashing on my bad days and i hope you'll stick around if it isn't. if you don't stay, the earth may quake close to a 8.5 and it will go down in history of how difficult it was to piece back my grounds. so even if the world stops spinning, i'll still spin it for you like when you used to pay for my admission and walk me to my doorstep, like there was nothing more dangerous than leaving traces of my footsteps across my dewy lawn. i'll spin it like the beer bottle with the foam settling at the bottom, just so i can see something fluid move because sometimes being fluid is more beautiful than being solid since solidity only has one shape. so once you tell me that you won't be there to spin my bad days to good, i'll leave you alone, like i would the dead carcass of the deer we hit two days ago in your rusty volvo but don't be surprised if you ever wonder if i dream about you and when the answer is only every once in a while.