we should have
said it right there
that night we danced
to the sounds of our
pitiful attempt of some
song snorting through our
noses. people were looking
then & it was embarrassingly
good, like our own reality show
with no hidden scripts or planned
settings but now people are looking
but not at the perfect-imperfent
memory of what they should have
done or will do but at the silent moments
we share, five months old & i'm still
having a one-sided conversation with
your headstone