I hate when people notice my shaking
my eating habits
and the way I prefer to sleep
than to be seen
I hate when people notice me
because then, they know I exist.
Sometimes, I don't want to exist
I hate when people notice me,
and they remember my name
I don't want to be known,
I don't want to be seen
I don't want to be noticed,
and all these things.
I know I don't eat much,
in fact I haven't ate in three days
It's not that I don't want to.
I just can't.
It's not that I want to be scared of crowds,
and shake and shiver
and want to disappear.
It's not that I want to be this way,
I'd give anything to change