From dark to light,
Feelings sparked that night.
They were down,
I pretended I was a clown.

I told you I'd make you smile,
But you never let me.
Reasons were too deep
That digging won't give me a sweat.

Sweet, I thought.
If only you've done it,
As I watched the sky,
Every night as I pray.

Dates were too fast,
The melody didn't even last.
Still, I opened my senses,
To absorb what's about to flash.

Lightning in a perfect day,
My eyes couldn't resist,
Though it shows trouble
I gave it a smirk.

Seasons change, I turned 18,
I accepted rumors
Rejected facts.
Nothing stays the same.

My hands became my shield,
When I cry,
When I laugh,
When I try to end this life.