Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas anymore.
I love giving gifts and watching the smiles on faces when people open them.
All these people gathering together for a day/night of joy.
All I get is anxiety and exhaustion.
People ask me to many questions.
Everyone wants to talk about their own lives too.
Afterwards, most go back to not talking with each other.
Thanksgiving is very similar.

New Years is full of promises that no one ever keeps and parties that are filled with many empty souls.

People stop talking.
They grow apart.
They grow meaner.
Some grow up, some don't.

And I'm just trying to live in it all.