Dec 2014
To the man who nearly beat the **** out of me
Thank you
I was awash in melancholia
Trying to pacify it with reason
I was alone with my headphones on when I walked in front of your car when you had a green light to go and I kept on. You honked and yelled something mostly indistinguishable over the music and I didn't given a **** so I gave you a bird. I heard you yell again and I gave you another bird. I kept strolling on as you pulled out on the adjacent street and yelled something else. Another bird.
I sense your anger, I don't know if you're coming from me but it exists.
I walk. You drive. I walk. You slow down and turn left into a parking lot in front of me. I debate leaving quickly but decide to venture on, there is a grocery store with a cop. I'll enter there in case he decides to pursue. I try entering and am rejected. By an employee because the store is closing. I turn around and there you are in front of me making a funny face. You get close but don't touch me. You're yelling at me that I could've killed you because you walked on a green light. You're close but you haven't touched me. I yell back that I had headphones on and only heard you honking and yelling. You're still yelling how you can't just give people the finger. I suppose yelling at people and confronting them on a street is okay. We're attracting people and the cop comes outside. I am afraid. But now I am afraid for him because he's the angry one yelling and storming around like an idiot and he's black but I am white and so is the cop and I can tell the cop thinks he's the threat because he is and if we kept arguing he would've probably hit me so I tell him he's not wrong even though he's not right. He's not paying attention now. He's just running his mouth. Saying absurd threats like giving a person the finger will get you shot. The cop tells me to come inside to let him calm down and I do and he leaves. And I am inside the grocery store telling the cop a lie about what happened and he wants to know where I am going and I tell him. He tells me to head out the back and enjoy my books. I leave exasperated, shaken, and depressed. I go to my car and go to a bar and feel increasingly disconnected from humanity. You are right I shouldn't have walked and I shouldn't have given you the finger hut you are wrong for yelling and confronting me. You are right you had a green light but this is a sidewalk and pedestrian has right of way. and you are wrong no ******* is worth violence be it punches or bullets. You're an idiot who wants to take it to the next level. I am idiot who wants to be left alone. You aren't civil.
Thank you
I was awash in melancholia
Trying to pacify it with reason
I was alone with my headphones on when I walked in front of your car when you had a green light to go and I kept on. You honked and yelled something mostly indistinguishable over the music and I didn't given a **** so I gave you a bird. I heard you yell again and I gave you another bird. I kept strolling on as you pulled out on the adjacent street and yelled something else. Another bird.
I sense your anger, I don't know if you're coming from me but it exists.
I walk. You drive. I walk. You slow down and turn left into a parking lot in front of me. I debate leaving quickly but decide to venture on, there is a grocery store with a cop. I'll enter there in case he decides to pursue. I try entering and am rejected. By an employee because the store is closing. I turn around and there you are in front of me making a funny face. You get close but don't touch me. You're yelling at me that I could've killed you because you walked on a green light. You're close but you haven't touched me. I yell back that I had headphones on and only heard you honking and yelling. You're still yelling how you can't just give people the finger. I suppose yelling at people and confronting them on a street is okay. We're attracting people and the cop comes outside. I am afraid. But now I am afraid for him because he's the angry one yelling and storming around like an idiot and he's black but I am white and so is the cop and I can tell the cop thinks he's the threat because he is and if we kept arguing he would've probably hit me so I tell him he's not wrong even though he's not right. He's not paying attention now. He's just running his mouth. Saying absurd threats like giving a person the finger will get you shot. The cop tells me to come inside to let him calm down and I do and he leaves. And I am inside the grocery store telling the cop a lie about what happened and he wants to know where I am going and I tell him. He tells me to head out the back and enjoy my books. I leave exasperated, shaken, and depressed. I go to my car and go to a bar and feel increasingly disconnected from humanity. You are right I shouldn't have walked and I shouldn't have given you the finger hut you are wrong for yelling and confronting me. You are right you had a green light but this is a sidewalk and pedestrian has right of way. and you are wrong no ******* is worth violence be it punches or bullets. You're an idiot who wants to take it to the next level. I am idiot who wants to be left alone. You aren't civil.
