i promise to always be true to myself
and when i don't know who "myself" is
i'll find her before i act
as someone who isn't "herself"
because actions speak louder than my words ever will
i remember when i acted like i knew what was up
when i changed my clothes and my hair for someone
who wasn't worth changing for
i remember how lost i felt
finding myself took longer that time
still i find traces of the wannabe never-gonna-be girl that i tried to be
in my closet
in my mind
i will never completely rid myself of her
maybe she's become part of me
slipped into my body when i wasn't paying attention
maybe i liked it
i promise to know what i like
before i let it mutate
into something i genuinely hate
i promise to know who i am
before i try to get to know others
how can they know me
if i don't know me?