there is so much tar in my life
I’ve been trying to fill myself with crystals
but all I’m getting is volcanic rock
slowly melting my every good intention
i remember when i told you  
that id die if i every treated anyone
the way you treated me
maybe thats why I’m dead inside
i treated myself the way you treated me
i lied to myself
i pretended to love what I’ve become
i pretended to not want someone else
and where has that gotten me?
nowhere
nowhere at all