don't call me beautiful
don't say that
don't claim to know me or like me or want to be around me unless you do know me
(which you don't)

don't call me beautiful until you see me screaming for fear of being alone,
until you see me tearing up my skin for no reason and threatening to **** someone for hating me and scaring everyone i ever cared about away

don't call me dedicated until you see me ignore my work out of spite,
until you see me ripping open the page because someone is better than me and avoiding an assignment that i haven't done and failing where i could easily succeed

don't call me cool until you see my weekend plans,
(sleeping and eating and sleeping and eating),
until you see that i've been surrounded by a whole lot of nothing my entire life

don't say that