Once you take the first cut - you get a fast rush.
It's like you've never lived before.
It makes your mind soar.
It makes you feel so incredible, to get that feeling that you have never felt before.
The kind of feeling that you can't describe.
It makes you feel good the first time - so you go deeper.
And the feeling gets 10 times sweeter - you take another cut.
But, this one doesn't feel as good - your mood changes.
Then you notice that you're bleeding.
You don't know what to do.
You've never been this far in the process - your mind states to digress.
Now you start feeling all the stress - building up in your chest.
You're afraid, scared.
There are so many emotions that you feel.
You start to get emotional.
You see the blood dripping - you feel the blade slipping - you feel your mind drifting.
You feel that you are going to get caught.
It was never as you thought.
You take another swipe across your wrist - feeling the blade touching your skin.
You slide it across - deeper than before.
You want to feel the pain - all over again.
It feels so good.
It changes your mood.
Just one more cut you tell yourself.
But you know you'll take more than just one more cut.
You can't stop - you cut.
Deeper - harder - farther - you bleed more.
You have more pain.
You know that you will cut again.
The cycle is never ending - nothing is going to change.
The blade will meet your wrist once again.