Quiet… still…. Speechless…. Alone…. confused with Christmas carols…only 2000 miles off from where I once heard them… …I cry…I sigh…..i try… I try….i sigh….i cry… longing to be held, to touch… to kiss….OOOO how I tried to the extreme of frenzy and frigid…in ignorance and pride…oooo I tired….. ive cried…. ive died 1000 times…and time never slows….its just like yesterday only 10 years older…..wiser but ignorant…..OOO if I could only fade into the imagination of what I tried to attain…… drifting into what cannot be explained…… forever forgetting bad habits like bad dreams……..yet id never trade this lonely night for if I did I would have never met you……………..Faith, Hope and Love………..Jesus