I hear people laughing
I see people smiling
I see people hugging
I see people getting close
I feel lonely
I wish I had that I said.
I wish I had comfort.
I wish I had someone there for me.
I wish I was close with someone I said.
Sorry I can’t come to your birthday, they said.
Sorry I’m hanging out with someone else, they said.
Sorry I forgot, they said.
It’s okay, I said to everyone.
I’m okay, I said to everyone.
I mean.. I wish I was.

I’m tired..
My back hurts as if I fell off a sled and hit my spine on thick ice.
My legs feel numb as if there’s slugs ******* my blood..
I feel like if little kids were running around screaming, making my head hurt.
My eyes feel swollen like if I were crying all day.

“I’m tired” I said.
“Your just lazy” she said..  I fell asleep as my tears roll down my face.

Although I know we are in a very hard time right now, I know we can do this, I know that we can get up and achieve our goals! Don’t let anyone push your dreams down. You need to keep going as hard as you can in order to get what you want and maybe in the mean time you will achieve something better! Be somebody nobody thought you could be.

As I drifted off to sleep, I heard the noises of the pouring rain, I heard the loud thunder, And the wind sounds as if someone were whistling. As The trees shake from side to side, I felt the chilly breeze hit my skin and yet I felt cold but calm and so I smiled happily.

Do you know that feeling when they text you and then you smile with butterflies in your stomach, then you put your phone down and fall asleep still smiling?

I wish we can bottles up memories, like we can put the scent of that memory in a bottle so that we can open it up whenever we want just so we can feel like we are reliving that memory all over again.

I feel like the room is shaking, I feel dizzy.. I feel like there’s snakes on my arms.. I feel sleepy, is there an earthquake? I can’t walk, I can’t think, I can’t stay awake. Last night when I went to sleep.. I dreamt of someone that I fell in love with.... and I remember his face but when I woke up I forgot how he looked like. I kept thinking of him.. in my dream.. we were on the bus we were listening to a song, with one of the ear pod in my ear and the other in his. I can’t remember the song..