I gave you love
I gave you hope
I gave you everything
you ever wanted

you left me with no love
you left me with no hope
you left me with nothing
but just memories

dreams are hell
that awaits you at night
when you wake up
you are still alone

just like reality
they say they will be there
but when the time comes
they are nowhere

I was there
when you are down
I was there
when you are crying

where were you
when I need you?
where were you
when I'm dying?

I sacrificed
myself to be a candle
for you
to light up your world

but instead you left me
in the corner
of a cold dark room
all by my own

and now
that room
is my home

waking up is always the same
one lonely body
in her garden of graves
my heat is just that
my heat
my dreams are still mine
just because you haunt them -
a reminder to dread nothing
no toothless lion
clawless beast
I'll fly from your split
jolts, I never come back from
I don't believe in reach
not unless I am shown stretching
arms do not speak
but they release
it's been done
& done & done to me
freed, "you are safer like this"
loveless lips, the only ones I see
& feeding from the tips of a liar's teeth  
fed until I depended on it
then thrown into a gust
I'll fly far away from you;

& hopefully soon
when enough is e n o u g h

my instincts will kick in

I wait and wait
as time goes by
I'm still wait
for something
that's not going
to come back home

I don't want to be like them,
I want to be my own,
with my own ideas, memories, thoughts
I don't want to go through the motions,
I don't want to be washed out,
I want to be original.