one thing about it is that it inevitably fades
while we run
in the mountains
while hands open
to hold
in vain
and hands close
and mouths open gasping for air
and mouths close again in a hopeless kiss
it is not painful
you still laugh
you still believe
your hands pairing in the air
airplanes flying
flowers blooming and dying
but can't you see, my dear?
it faded

I dreamt of skyscrapers
and landscapes
I dreamt of the height
and, often, I dreamt of the fall
I dreamt of guilt and forgiveness
of blurred memories and lost hopes
I waited for the spring
I waited for a change
yet it never came
still, I linger on
somehow

Is this all?
Is this all that we made?
So far
In the daylight she blooms
She blooms into a lonely night
Right in front of me
I’ll fade into a painful goodbye
Into a warn day
Either sorrow or sunflower

Still a little left
Still a sip or two
Still a laugh or ten
Your eyes judging my sins,
Your pale blue eyes
Your remains
That disturbs my peace
Outside
The dog barks insistently
I hope It will not mind

I wanna memorize every line of your face
I wanna save this moment in a phrase
So when our time ends
And your touch fades away
I'll still have a memorie of you
And that's what will keep me going through

limpid watercourse
bird's melody
soft wind in the trees
the light side of the moon

your mind, your body, you
insanely beautiful
the way you move your hands
reminds me of the time
we were free

She was inconstant like the stars
She was older than time
Such a beautiful mess she is

why are we always trying to fill the silence?
will we ever get tired of pretending?
i gave you all i had
and there's nothing left to move on
just your sweet voice in my head

i don't know you
i don't know you anymore

It's still in my head
the sunlight overrunning the window
your kinda-shy smile
your large white t-shirt
the poetry book floating on your hands

how you made all the rest seem insignificant
your words
your way

your coffee cup half full
the sky half blue
your arms around me
will we be together soon?

All we have is pieces of people
pieces of life
and a chance to make every mistake
there is no cure
the cure comes from inside

I gave you my laughs
I gave you my cries
I gave you my days, my nights
My moon, my clouds
I showed you myself in the simplest act
A second worth more than centuries
Our silence, infinite
Don't you know me?

Wanna get back to the place I prayed to escape
Nights and days are all the same
When you're not here
I'm so lost here
I need the damage you do to me

I keep falling
                       falling
                                  falling apart

like an angel in the dark
we're far from the start
our decisions were made a long time ago
where do you go when you don't know where to go?

everything i have to say
has been said before
by smarter, happier, funnier man than i am
but nobody feels it like i feel it now
they don't know how a defeat feels in their skin
they haven't been awake for many nights
alone in this room
wondering where you are

this irrational instinct
that devours me like a beast
left with the lack of the comfort
you used to give me

sinking in the flicker of you hovering in the air
i took you as an inherent part of my soul
forgive me for trying to fill that void
a fly attracted to the fire
begging for a felling  
i was addicted to every dose of you

walking in the dark
consciousness fading
messed signals
unfinished thoughts
life weights upon my shoulder
what is this all about?

your eyes, looking into mine
stairway talks
hanging in the afternoon
something about your smile,
captivated me

summer '19
sun blessing us
as soft as your skin

the TV's green light
washes this room,
playing the same records
'cause I still think about you

you're close but never enough
my hand can almost touch yours
but this could never be us

the subtlety of innocence hangs in the air
we used to dream everytime
'cause everything was still possible

season fever
still and forever

we made promises we can't keep
and maybe that's what growing up is

I wish I'd go back in time
just to make things right
just to hold you tight
but would it worth it?

show me your defects,
i won't walk away
show me your wounds,
i'll heal you
i'll stay through the storm
through the darkest days
i'll be there

Begging for a breath of life
Running through your veins
Like water, like flames
This animal spirit of yours
Who just wanna feel alive
Searching for the source of these courses
Looking for your purpose

we play lost and found
your head upon my chest
i hope you're safe and sound

my eyes rolling through your body
searching for your soul
i'm selfish, i know
though you're the one i cherish

there's no doubt of this feeling
the warmth in the air
we can't deny it

running though your veins like a river
i wanna sink in that dream
never wake me up

If once there was fire, today It's just dust
The heartbeat slowed
Our hands got cold
It doesn't make sense anymore
The songs don't sound the same
The movies are just frames
The poems are just words
We're just two strangers in this room

deep down
there's the emotional side of me
too vulnerable
too dramatic
the side that have been hurt a million times
the child that always cries,
that's scared of everything

and to hide it, I built me

sometimes I write to set it free

my biggest fear is to
give up on these dreams,
to lose the joy of life
and end up working 8 hours a day
in a tiny white square
with the men in suit and tie
complaining about the life I don't live

my piece of advice is
love completely.
if you love someone,
show it
in every single action
cause time is a bullet
and a gun
pointing at your head
and fate isn't always fair
so let your only regret be
loving too hard.

just smile and say you miss them
even though you don't.
trust can't be fixed
deception can't be erased
we are not the same

he takes you for walks
lunch in your parents' house
he doesn't love you like i do
but he is something i could never be
he is something for you

Left the phone hanging on the wall
I was waiting but you never called
You walked away,
Left me waiting in the hallway
Left me alone in this room
Wondering why

I haven't stopped loving you
I just pretend I did
Hoping someday It will be true

essa saudade
que invade e arrebata
que mesmo perto não passa
que me fez inventar caminhos
que me fez andar pela cidade
para te trazer para casa

city's lights looking after us
holding on midnight talks
as fast as the leaves falls
i'm scared that i'll miss you

can you stay for a while?
i just don't wanna sleep on my own

Ar puro na janela
É vendaval
Perfume de canela
Jasmim, nardo
Vestido amarelo

Você para mim
É  flor do instante
Distante a orar
Por mim

O oceano, o bar, a praia
Me leva para casa,
Anjos e arcanjos
É folha de outono,
Felicidade inventada

A flor é o ópio
É o ar, é o sol

Palavras enfeitadas
Poemas e aquarela

Me leva para casa.

her eyes
made me dive
her smile
made me laugh
her arms
drove me home

she saved me
from the darkest places
when no one else could

and these are the things
I'll ever be grateful for

I'm broken in a million pieces
trying to stand up my feet
took some shots
trying to remember who I am
trying to understand
this way, empty and messy like glass
called life

lost the battle
with myself

It was about 3 in the morning
he would wake me up

everything was blurry
all I had
was a memory of you
sitting with your legs crossed
in the other side of the room
but even that was fading away

I was desperate
exhaust
defeated
and there was nothing to run away from