Philia

Philia Dec 2019

Tears.

She talks to you a billion times,
just to make you understand.

She is for sure super complicated
& She herself is as confused as you are.
She's a mess.
But she wants you to know that no matter how crazy she is,
she knows what she wants.

She tries to talk to you.
First with a smile in her face..
Patiently explains to you.

& when everything happened again,
she repeatedly explains.
Finally she's sick with it. & explains to you in anger.

But still, you don't get it.

Communications between two lovers is the most important thing in the relationship, they said.

Maybe this time she'll let her tears to speak,
hopefully you'll understand better.
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Philia Dec 2019

No Rendezvous.

Both are speaking in two different language.
Nothing really connects.
Both cannot put themselves in each other's shoe.

It has no rendezvous.
then, what for?

Philia Aug 2019

Priority.

Life taught me hard,
To love myself more,
To stand alone,
& To be enough with myself.

I learn to take care of myself,
Even if the world is against me.
I learn to enjoy myself more than I am with people.

I learn to prioritize my insanity than anything in the world, just because I deserve to be the priority of myself.

I am the one that all I’ve got.

All I have is myself.
& That should be enough.

Philia Aug 2019

One Thing.

I've been swallowing the bitterness & *******,
what could be more bitter?

My heart has been broken multiple times,
what could be more painful than that?

I've been tricked on,
lied on,
betrayed on..
It is life.

One thing people should remember,
at the end of the day, all you got is yourself,
No one should & no one would ever help you.

Philia Aug 2019

2019.

2019 almost come to an end.
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This year,
I start off with some things that are new in my life;
a boyfriend, a new business & a partner.
& also I realised things that I forgot these past few years.
to not take things for granted & be more grateful,
to cherish & finally read some books,
oh, and to write.*
& I want to end this year well.

I have a letter for my 25-year old me that I wrote 5 years ago;
& surely I will updated it next year,
I will talk to 19-year old me; update her with my life.
Well, I got 7 months to do some heroic stuffs so she won't that disappointed with 25 year old version of herself.

Time do flies.
& sometimes I don't know how I got here.
I don't know how I finally can overcome my problems back then.

2019 is a much better year.
but yet, I haven't get used to this adult life.
I ramble for no reason & I got no point.
I just updating about how 2019 treated me.
I'm still hanging, guys.

Philia Aug 2019

To breath.

We have been really caught up in the World these days.
All we’ve been watch or read or think about are all about terrors;
wars;
tragedy.

We let our mind busy,
We let ourselves think & worry too much.

We often forget that we need to feed our mind to keep it sane.
We deserve to get our time alone,
To just breath, to just contemplate about life.
To seize the day.
To be grateful.
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Philia Jun 2019

Changes.

When people change,
and the feelings fade,
Everything is not in your favour anymore,
and you can't even compromise,

Would you stay for the sake of your comfort,
& tolerate even if it is hurt?

Or would you get up,
and move on?
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