I knew you were trouble when you walked in
now i'm lying on the cold har....

....wait....oh. ****.

I was a fool to
Have believed the light I saw
Was the one to save me, the one
To lead me out from this darkness
But I've come to realize, they
Are only lights passing by,
NONE are looking for me, they never were
I sit on this cold surface, in this dark room
With only my tears to keep me warm but
Even they become cold and turn against me.
I am dying a slow death, trapped
In this dungeon of loneliness on the verge of despair
Waiting and fading
I wait for that one light to find me and say,
"There you are, where have you been all of my life?"
But until then, I close my eyes and pretend, until
I fade away as the fool I am.

Great God of Mine,
How is it that the planets faithfully revolve around Your solar star
How is that the acorn mystically re-fashions itself into the majestic tree
How is it that the monarch finds the flyways and air currents to its winter home

Great God of Mine,
Why is it that babies are being born to immature children who can’t rear them
Why is it that a father takes out his anger on his wife and offspring
Why is it that man is incapable of living peacefully with his neighbor

Great God of Mine,
How is it that Rahab was chosen to facilitate an enemy’s victory over her Jericho
How is that the Samaritan woman at the well claimed Jesus’s living water
How is it that Simon of Cyrene forcefully bore the cross to Golgotha behind Jesus

Great God of Mine,
Why is it that mothers can end the lives of their little ones
Why is it that drug-users and perverts are destroying safe homes
Why is it that political leaders make selfish decisions that harm their constituents

Great God of Mine,
How is it that you created man for relationship knowing his inability to sustain it
How is it that you eternally love mankind in the face of his constant rejection
How is it that you sacrificed your innocent Son to save a sinful people

Great God of Mine,
Why is it that the twelve apostles included a traitor
Why is it that the “rock of the church” denied your Son three times
Why is it that an apostle who walked with Jesus could doubt his authenticity

Great God of Mine,
How is it that You knew me before time began
How is it that You saved me with my not deserving it
How is it that You love me; You LOVE…ME!

my heart ached as i cried for you, for all the memories we shared, for the secrets that we whispered, for the bumps in the road that we got over, for the late night talks, for the awkward silences, for the secret glances, for the time that we spent together. but now, you're gone.