I heard you're a player,
so lets play a game.
Lets sweet talk.
Let's talk 24/7.
Let's go on dates.
Let's talk on the phone all night long.
Let's hold each other.
Let's kiss and hug.
And who ever falls in love first loses.

There's a skeleton heart inside of me,
so deep down where no one can see.
This skeleton heart is mine alone,
just one complete depressing bone.
And I know I've been lonely from the start,
so please don't break my skeleton heart.

Dazed.
The stars never seemed so far away
Lying with hopelessness sleeping next to my pillow
In the arms of seclusion, still I lay
After a long night we formed a *******
No strength to pray
Withing my carapace
I inquire a reason
Of why I'm so numb
Where is my lighter?
Concealing my pain
Where is my grinder?
When life is like a sudden rush of fresh air to
A raging set of flames
Savagely searching for an euphoria
But it's the impossible to maintain
Longing for an escape
Only in sweet serenity
But when 5 fingers deadly hugs your heart
& wrings out your
Innocence, happiness, and tranquility
You are forced to watch them leak
Decrepit
Reaching for a lighter to blaze the leaf
Because in the sober mind
You Are Weak
No that is me.
So I begin to pollute my temple
Taking it all into my bloodstream
With the exhale of a breath
In the mist of a cloud
I release my exhaustion
My emotion and my temper
Enhancing my inner being suddenly,
I know with facts that I am steel
Making it through another dreadful night
My wounds are temporarily healed
But
When there was no soul to console
No arms to hold
No pen to make art
No illumination from the dark
Only the flame that I flick
Which forms so beautifully &
Dances in front of my eyes
Offended that beauty could destroy so ruthlessly
A killer in disguise
Or ruthlessly be destroyed
In this life full of void
Consumed by the misery of all the screams
All the noise
When the Sun's job is done, it hides from the World
Full of hatred and pity
Another night comes
Captive in these four walls
No where to run
Now I'm forced to look at how far I've come
I could have died in insanity
Arson my soul
Plead guilty of ******
A Killer Upfront
If I had not match all those nights with all those blunts


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                                 ©Patty Ann

Emotions take me physical
Making me their slave
They trick me
Into a false reality
Consuming my sanity
They seize my control
I am held captive
With an illusion that is seeping through
And with a slight glance
I see them inside,
I am a puppet
Lifeless with eyes,
Eyes that gaze over
Them pulling strings
Once thought mine
Now torn to shreds
I start to fail,
And as I quiver
I stay quiet
This control over me
Has me still
But staring,
I plead silently
Just let me run away
Into thoughts once alive
But in reality
I am perishing
In lifeless thoughts
Filled with poison
That I am not awake
Only just a waste