Petite Parcel

Petite Parcel Oct 2015

Sometimes I think to myself,
"I can't do it anymore. It's just too much"
The pain is overwhelming,
It's too much to take.

I think to myself,
"I can't take this any longer"
as I clutch at my heart tearing itself apart.

And then I come to my senses,
"you don't have a choice, you'll deal"
I wipe away tears that have escaped.

"It's not like I can stop loving you. I can't just forget and move on. You are a need that another will not sate. I could never give up on you, you are my soulmate"

Petite Parcel Oct 2015

Precious Time

Sometimes it hurts more.
Sometimes it's just a twinge.
Other times, well...

I feel everything
I can feel every inch of distance
Every second of time between us
I can feel all the moments we could be making
but aren't.

Life is short.
I realize this every time you say goodbye
and I have to go on waiting
until the next hello.

Are we wasting precious time?
Will we look back on these years and regret
living so far apart,
yearning so much,
feeling so much in our hearts
that could never be conveyed without a gentle touch?

Time is precious,
and some days it hurts more than others.

Petite Parcel Sep 2015

You Have So Much Of Me

I could have my heart broken
by a hundred different men
and I could find it in myself
to learn to love again.

I fear you, for if you break it
it may never ever mend.
So please be sure you'll tend me,
or risk being just a memory I've penned.

Petite Parcel Sep 2015

It's New but I've Felt it Before

It's like salt in a wound that won't heal
when I say goodbye to your face I can't feel.
It makes it fresh even though it's still new
It rubs raw my memory, the thought of you.

Blowing you a kiss when I can't kiss you for real
is a new kind of pain that I've felt before
it was just in my head, now I feel it in my core.
I want you more, I need you more, just give me more.

It hurts so bad, but I need it like this
to keep you with me, to remember your kiss.
It hurts right now, but it won't forever
one day you'll be mine, I won't need to remember.

Petite Parcel Sep 2015

Party Trick

I've just been broken into two -
The piece that stayed with me
and the piece that went with you.

Petite Parcel Sep 2015

Dear Darling

I know you know
what I mean.

You read the words that my heart wrote
You pass them off - a simple quote

But I know you know
what I mean.

You bring them up for me to see
You joke with me - a silent plea

Dear, I know you know
what I mean.

You can't face your own heart up front
but you can read mine when it's so blunt

Yes I know you know
what I mean.

You can keep it inside if you want to
You can act like you haven't got a clue

Honey,
You know I know you know
what I mean though.

Petite Parcel Aug 2015

A Little Mismatched

My fingers are electric
when I touch them to your skin.
It's as though we're magnetic.
Now that doesn't make sense,
but neither do we.

I scrawl these words
across your chest.
I hope that they burn
and make you confess.

We are a funny fit
-does it make you want to run for it?