I get
   So lonely

Trapped in a world
    Without you

Good music
Puts me in a trance
As I  absorb it's essence

Seeps into my soul
Sets a a stain
Like a strongly brewed tea

Imprints upon my heart
A constant melody
forever floating through my thoughts

I don't know if you read poetry
I don't know if this counts as a poem.

But I think of you often
Constantly floating through my ever  changing
train of thought. Rerouting
changing tracks running at full speed.
Taking highest priority.

I think of the things I want to tell you.
Like how I like your smile, the muscles down your back, they way you look at me when I do something dorky.

I think of how I want to kiss you, how I never get tired of hearing everything you have to say about anything,  how hugging you is the safest I've felt in a while.

I think of you often. And when will I see you again. We'll both be different people by then. But we'll keep in touch and keep happy. I'm excited to see you again no matter who you are next time.

I'm laying here
It's 12:16 am.
And I'm like
****, I miss you
You haven't even been gone long
But I haven't heard from you lately
And it shouldn't bother me
But my brain won't let me sleep
I wonder if you think of me
Wonder what I'm up too
Do I keep you up at night
Thinking of my smile
And the curve of my spine
The way yours fill my daydreams
Music doesn't even drown you out
Thoughts of you scream the loudest in my head
I'm laying here
It's 12:21 am.
And I'm like
****, I miss you

Hold me close
Block out the world
So I can wonder around
Get lost in your soul

golden lips to kiss
soft and sweet
impossibly unique
saving that first kiss
for you

My body's exhausted
     But my brain is wide awake

Running racing thoughts
      But I'm getting nowhere

Brain send out the action
    To these lazy restless hand

There is no reaction

School is ******* out my soul
Taking each abstract thing I love
and forming perfect even shapes
Of normality

I want to be educated
In the beauty and meaning
Of life
Not conformed into a role for society

I don't think she understands
how much happiness I give up sometime
just to see her smile

you are my happiness
my other half
the end of my sentence
part of my soul
my heart
my being
always in the back of my mind
a comfort thought
always there
a peaceful place
of safety
I love you forever
don't ever forget
you are my happiness

I may look like a rose garden
but inside I'm full of thorns

That moment
The calm before the storm
Before the sky splits open
And pours out everything it has
Connecting heaven and earth
And we just call it rain

I miss you
back then
life was good
you were mine
we were happy
now its drinks
and getting blazed
where'd that sweetheart go
who looked at me and said I love you
without a word
I miss you
the you
you used to be

And she moved on from him
like peeling off an worn and tattered sweater
never to be worn again.

I miss you
not the I miss you and can't wait to see you again

But the I miss you
and I know we won't talk as much
you're hugs won't ever be the same
I won't get to kiss you when you smile
or reach for your hand after getting in the car

I miss the safety
the comfort feeling
the entirety that is your being

It was only yesterday
and it ***** because
I miss you already

I enjoy the rain

When it really pours

It feels like home

I love a good thunder storm

chaotic beauty

      the dramatic dance
of lightning and thunder

the trees swaying to the beat
of the electrified hum
       that fills the air

moisture clinging to every surface

waiting for the crashing symphony

There is a constant melody
Playing in my mind

A softer sweeter parody
Of the reality I leave behind

Keeping time to the beat of my heart
Gently humming along

I can't remember when I heard it start
Ever changing beautiful notes

Its quiet when your
Alone
Silent thoughts
Race through
My head
Screaming
Yelling
Laughing crying
Silent thoughts
To every one
But me

Familiar faces
Unknown names
Different people
Similar features
I don't know them
I don't know
if I care

When I'm with you it's like
There's life
Then there's us
And I forget everything
And it's like
Wow

I miss you

Dancing in the kitchen

Singing with you

Talking in the shower

Getting up to coffee

Kissing you

Falling asleep to your heart beat

Distance is ******* the soul

I don't know where
     My mind is tonight
         Probably floating on a cloud

I don't know where
   My heart is tonight
      Probably curled up next to yours

I don't know where
     My soul is tonight
         Probably lost somewhere in between

I don't know what
I'm doing tonight
With all my missing pieces

Sometimes I feel like we're just ghosts
Walking through our lives
Not really knowing what we're doing
Or where we're going
And there's just here

I really need
to not
procrastinate
as much
as
I do

I love you more
   Than I love myself
And I don't know
    If thats good
              Or bad

I wish I could fall into the pages of book
Mix in between the lines of characters
Explore all the imaginary places
Get lost in the story
Live in the words
A new adventure every page

Where do you hide
When the demons are inside
Your mind your heart your soul
There is no where to hide
When the demons are inside

We met
That connection
The spark
Interest
Then you quite literally
****** me over

you are my happiness
my other half
the end of my sentence
part of my soul
my heart
my being
always in the back of my mind
a comfort thought
always there
a peaceful place
of safety
I love you forever
don't ever forget
you are my happiness

I don't want to die
I don't want attention
I just like the pain
That clean slice
Through my delicate skin
And the fire it lites inside

I hate to love you
But I could never help how I feel

Hands up your sides
Eyes locking eyes
How ya gonna feel
When ya get that

Teeth on your neck
Nails down your back
How ya gonna feel
When ya get that

Tongue in your cheek
Things going deep
How ya gonna feel
When ya get that

When you get that moment

Our words are magic
26 letters
And our creativity
Endless possibilities
Casting spells
With our stories
Bringing up
Forgotten emotions

Spending time with you
Is like the white noise
To the chaos of my life

You can smell it
Can't you
Slowly rolling in
Across the land
Following the clouds
Just before it rains
You can smell it
Can't you

Do you ever lay in bed
And ponder your
Existence

You have to ***
And your stomach
Is rumbling
Yet you stay on your
On your island
Of solitude

Check the clock
You should have
Gotten up
Hours ago

Face the day
Or at least
Whats left of it

I want to sleep
But my brains still going
Thought train off the tracks
Rapid racing random

An yet producing nothing

years from now

   I hope you look back on your life

and think of me

and realize what you missed

You're so wrapped up

               In the ruins of your world,


     With her.




sorry for interrupting.

I loved you
More than I ever wanted too

And now?

I miss you
more than you will ever know

Burnt myself again today
need to be more careful with fire

I don't get out much
but there isn't much to do on the outside

The stillness in this house
on a higher level than most

Like time ceases to exist
once I stepped through the door

I just press the button play the music
and melt out of my physical being

Float through my days
in the melancholy light

Going about my crafts
singing to the silent audience that is my home

I want t know you
Feel every part of your existence
With the simple touch of your hand