Slit my wrists

Drain me dry

And I'll still have hope

Running through my veins

This isn't happening
Not now
I've been happy for so long

I can't fight the tears
Darkness closing in
This isn't happening

I've been doing
So good
I've been smiling

This isn't happening
Not now
I can't break down

Sometimes I get lost

     In my bed,

Floating around                      
                  
A sea of unleashed thoughts,

Tidal waves of ideas                    

Ships of good intentions.    

Leave me in their wake,

Without a second glance.                    

My thoughts
                  
                         Send out a ripple.

A simple cry for help.


This life boat slowly sinking,
Into the depths of plain white sheets

Maybe tomorrow.                

I'll set sail.

a whole other world
that isn't mine
but so easy to get lost in
loosing my reality
for an adventure
without leaving

my mind starts to wander
an endless train of thought
full of emotions
the need to create
expressing inner turmoils
yet I find
I have nothing to
create

Words are full of magic.
What spell are you casting?

Rain
outside my window at night
helps me sleep without fright
no terrors keeping me awake
just calming rain that isn't fake
a simply yet complex melody
as if giving the world an apology
"Sorry for this but its for your own good"
and it rains on as it should

I get

JUDGED

Every day
      
                 By what I wear

                      By what I say

                                          By what I do
My short hair

My crazy

My style

I am not

Your traditional

BEAUTY

                     I am simply me

                         and I am still
Beautiful

It just takes the right
                         Eyes
                                       to see

That moment

When that someone

Your world

Looks at you
And

smiles

Just smiles
Like
You are the only thing
In the world
They see
And they smile

Just for you

Pleas don't go
I want you
To see you
To kiss  you
To touch you
To feel you
To be with just
you
please don't go

Life**

That **** don't stop for no one

I wish you could see
that moment
when you text me
and my whole face lights up
with that one hello
all that happiness
just from you
and you don't even
**know