She gave me pineapple kisses
her smile was sweeter than sunshine
I wish I could make her mine
but she slipped away through a different strand of time

I've heard
Pineapples taste of summertime
A humid sticky night, lovers delight
but the texture I couldn't bear
so eat the fruit I wouldn't dare
then my world changed when I met a beauty so rare

With hair like dark chocolate
and eyes like the sky
Her laughter like a familiar song

She gave me pineapple kisses
her smile was sweeter than sunshine
I should have made her mine
before she slipped away through a different strand of time

I wanna snuggle
Cuddle up close
Collapse into you
Curl up in your soul

in that hour
between day and night
mystery hour
of filmy blue light
blurred lines
and shadowed faces
magical signs
dusk

I wish for more hours
in the day
the week
the month
the year

yet so many more hours
are
wasted

Drip
    Drop
           Drizzle

Subtle music

Smartphone
        Games

Peaceful
night

Subway
       Sub city
              Sub lifestyle
Always staring

down

Never looking
       Around
Ignoring people

Around you

Avoid eye contact
     stare
at the floor

      Subway
             Sub city
                     Sub lifestyle

I have no need for a knight in shining armor sitting upon their  high horse
With perfect shields and swords held high

Give  me a knight with battered  armor dented shields and scratched bladed
Who have hunted down their demons faced their feare and won
With bight eyes and angry scars

Give  me  a  knight that's traveled far
Not one that's stayed in their own court yard

dark clouds of my past

        The clear skies of my future

Life's not smooth sailing

A little bit of bitter
A whole lot of sweet
A powder
They call creamer
I don't drink black coffee
It tastes like death

I saw some one
Who looked like you
The other day
My heart stopped
Wrong place
Wrong time
It wasn't you
And I'm moving on

Bitter coffee swirling in my cup
Not enough flavor to fill me up

Should I complain to baristas till satisfied
As if it would make my taste buds feel justified

A shot of espresso in my coffee
All I'm lacking is English toffee

I keep drinking even though its not so sweet
to stubborn to admit defeat

Its not so bad if you drink it fast
The bitter flavors I soon get past

Bitter coffee is no more
For I am just a coffee *****
  
And I drank it.

sometimes I wear hats
to keep all my thoughts
in my head
sometimes
I wear hats
to keep
ideas in my
brain
sometimes
I wear hats
to keep my words
stored away
sometimes
I wear hats
cause my hair looks bad

Outside in the winter
Numbing my everything
To match my frozen heart

my love
i miss you
so much
i can not express it in words
i miss our giggles
and coffee dates
and nonlebian/lesbian hand holding
our loudness
our singing a
and awesome dancing
i miss taking pictures
and smiling
our moments of stupidity
i miss all of your wonderfulness
with love

It's pouring rain
Rivers run through the drains

Nothing happens in this town
peoples lives spiral down

Very few escape this place
start in a new town as a new face

If you're stuck here get used to gray days
as the contrast of your soul slowly fades away

Cause we live in the **** of god
fenced in by mountains and more than flawed
we'll take your losers loners and outcasts
Too eager to forget their pasts
Placed in this godforsaken community
Where no one cares about your identity

If you catch a glimpse of the scenery it's beauty never fades
but the wind cuts through to your core like a sharp blade

You'll never elude that damp chill
Keeping warm is a needed skill

If you ever go out dress in layers
And just in case say a few prayers

Unlike the people the weather is harsh
and to the beat of the rain we all march

Cause we live in the **** of god
fenced in by mountains and more than flawed
we'll take your losers loners and outcasts
Too eager to forget their pasts
Placed in this godforsaken community
Where no one cares about your identity

Winds are howling
dreams are drowning
Waves crashing into the shore
ships will sail no more
In this washed out itty bitty city
where the weathers always ******

Cause we live in the **** of god
fenced in by mountains and more than flawed
we'll take your losers loners and outcasts
Too eager to forget their pasts
Placed in this godforsaken community
Where no one cares about your identity

A hug

        A kiss

                A touch

                       Conformed to your figure
                            One simple shape
      
                          How I long for your embrace

                                           A touch

                     A kiss
A hug

Consumed by your soul
Safe in your arms

Your hug
your kiss
your touch

I know you're there
Taunting me
Just out of reach
Sneaking up close
Then dashing away
Making me
Want you more
Sleep
Why must you
Elude me

were all blazin
world is hazin
waiting for the media to change our minds
wait a second lets rewind
they say its freedom of speech
but its only free if you practice what you preach
so you can say what you say
and we'll turn the other cheek
but if you make a fuss and commotion
cause waves in the ocean
we'll stop your devotion
put your world out of motion
so stick with the majority
don't question our authority
we're all fighting for peace
but peace is not a victory
we should know from our history
see past our differences
and gain back our innocence
sharing is caring
but if we don't care
then what do we share
freedom of religion
should be the final decision
we all practice in peace
putting our minds at ease

can I just melt away
flow around the world
disappear into the earth
become one with the universe

I'd give up all my happiness
      
            Just
                  To
          See
                    You
Smile

My demons come
in the middle of the night
they claw at my back
tear at my skin

My demons come
in the middle of the night
slip through my ears
mix with my thoughts

My demons come
in the middle of the night
violate my emotions
poison my veins

My demons come
in the middle of then night
and soon
they just might win

You caught me off guard

Slipped through my defenses

I was useless against your smile

Angry so much angry
more and more frustrated
its blinding
I can't do anything right
don't talk to me
You're standing to close
too much angry
maybe if I keep washing my hands
scrub harder
get all of this off
like black oil clinging to my skin
all this hate
the stench I can't get it off
Hotter water
more soap
My hands are raw
But still unclean
I feel disgustingly filthy
coated on the backs of my hands
in the creases of my palms
packed under my nails
my internal voice is screaming till its raw
just a violent ringing in my ears
and a blur of frustration

I often wonder about your lips
more specifically your kiss

  If they are as soft as I imagine
if they are as passionate as I hope

  Yet you leave me to ponder the structure of your profile
  Only guessing how your mouth would fit against mine

   Questioning if I would like how they traced my collar bones
   Or when they brushed my ears as you whispered the fading memory of your dream

  Would they leave behind shadows of safety on my forehead
  Stains of desire upon my soul

  Leave little love notes wherever they wondered
  Small silent secret I love yous
Only known to those who could feel them

  How I wish you would explain every detail of your lips
  With just one kiss against mine

I feed off of peoples energy

if you're happy
I'm happy

If you're angry
I'm angry

If I'm not around people
For too long
I am empty
I feel nothing

Do you ever miss someone so much
long for their presence
like a thirst you cannot quench

when you do see them
it's like that first sip of water
after a long run
a tall glass of lemonade
on a hot summer afternoon
an ice cold beer
after a long day

And you really see them
drink in their energy
gulp it down
like it's the most decadent flavor
to touch your tongue

And now that I've had a taste
I'll never stop craving you

In this world of rage and distraction
What are your thoughts your inner reactions
When you see people living in the streets
And trash at your feet
Do you show your emotions
Across an expansion of oceans
Or keep them bottled up inside
Safely in your soul to hide

Why keep hidden from world's view
When you could make a difference yes just  you
Makes someone's day give them a smile
You could make people happy for even a little while
One small thing could start a chain reaction
In this world filled with rage and distraction

So make your inner thoughts outter
Become a shouter
Express your emotions
To the size of oceans
And maybe just maybe
We can keep the world from going crazy

That face
You make
When you realize
It was all lies

The heart break
You feel
When you find out
From someone else

You understand my soul
I wanna be close to you

You understand my soul
You inspire me

You understand my soul
I want to make you smile

You understand my soul
And you've stolen a piece of my heart

So many things rattling around in my head
questions without answers
screaming at me from the backs of my eyelids

Yelyelyelling
What the what the what the ****
are you doing with your life
You haven't done **** **** ****
today

You have it so easeaseasy
you should get out and dododo some thing
where are you going in life

echos around
the canyons and crevasses of my mind

And then I fold myself into your arms
and everything is silent
Just the comforting hum of your existence

It hurts to miss you as much as I do
I can't stay still too long
it fills up the space I'm in
I can smell it in my clothes

I miss you
like a silent prayer
a mantra
a chant in the back of my mind

It rolls of my shoulders in pale plumes of white smoke
Leaving a fog in my wake
I can't sit still too long
else I loose sight of everything around me

I miss you
a simple song playing on repeat
I hum along
the tune sticks in my mind

It's hard to live life
with half a beating heart
when the other beats for you
without my favorite piece there's a hole in my existence

I miss you
How I long for your closeness
your peaceful energy
that quiets my screaming soul

I'm sorry
   It was I that killed you

Put my blade in your back
     Wicked way with words

Honestly I hope it was painful
     Not a quick easy death

Dug deep into your shoulder blade
       Close to your heart

Leaving you to wonder
       Who betrayed you

A burning mass
Of bi polar
Energy
Ups and downs
And all
Arounds
It's who
I am
Deal with it

Sometimes it's hard not to hate you
you care more for you girlfriends
(Meant to be plural)
then you've ever shown for me
your flesh an blood
you brought into the world

You've distanced yourself from me
left me behind to live with a monster
so you could feel better

All I hear from you
is she's so serious about this
or I like how she does this
she's a wonderful that.

I try to be happy for you
but sometimes its hard not to hate you
and sometimes when you talk to me
I just want to be a sarcastic *****
but I don't

I love the way you sleep with me
  your body envelops me whole
     the way your arms hold me close
          you conform to the curves of my body
               soft nuzzles into my neck till you're content.

I love the way you sleep with me
   never a space between us always connected
     entangled in eachothers warmth
        heads side by side sharing a pillow
            our chests simultaneously rising falling with every breath.

               I kiss you wherever I can reach sometimes you kiss me back softly in your sleep
            hug your back hold you close and chase away bad dreams
         trace your face with my finger tips on engraving you in my mind
I love the way you sleep with me perfectly at ease.

Insane in the membrane
bran damage
pays homage
to the 21st century
IQs of the next
generation
at all time lows
for the nation
creation levels are dropping
doesn't take much
to be the new sensation
use your imagination
lets go get high
the words we live by
Looking for a reaction
Pursuing our own satisfaction

Going to sleep
An awkward dance
With my partners
bed and pillow
but when we work together
slip into rhythm
the applause
is endless

It takes so much effort
to build up my good mood
But it's worth it
to be smiling and happy
Yet the structure itself
is so fragile
and easily destroyed

I get
   So lonely

Trapped in a world
    Without you