My funny little monstar boy..
Impressively causing such cute chaos each day.. oh he's a joy!

But sometimes.. just sometimes.. I feel like I'm at war! it's true!
You see you simply must become a worriaor if your bringing up this blue..!
Cos he will bring down the house with
a mischievous giggle,
Thumb on nose, fingers wiggle.
But then he's built a space ship and there's only room for 2,
He's of to the moon and who must come? you..

I find he's just out of controle confidently and contently,
Smashing and grabbing oh this boy don't do gently.
Oh and you must remember you are not the boss of this place,
Only when sleeping can you land a kiss on his face.
He's impossible to groom cos he's always on a mission,
He's gonna take over the world and he don't need your permission..
See now your little beast is already a soldier, They say he may calm down as he gets older..
But for now keep rank! And hold your position,
Dont back down to your 3 year old opposition!

Yes your aging, and struggling.. your patients constantly thin...
But alls you can do is keep on loving him.

And that part is easy x

Not one soul on earth could ever contain her,
She was a little bit crazy , a born entertainer..
She lives by the sea in a small little town, she knows them all for she's their clown.
She'll sing you a song if you show her some doe,
Find on a Tuesdays, it's an incredible show!
And You won't ever see her unhappy for she hides it so well,
She's carrying the world though no one can tell.
This girl works solo, but she likes a full choir,
How she draws you in, it's an incredible power.
"Fake it to make" it I hear her say,
I can put on a smile if they are willing to pay.
She holds the audience In the palm of her hand,
To them she's the happiest lass in the land.
In awe of her talent, her energy will boost you,
A standing ovation is something shed use too. 
But in the early hours when she gets home,
Though she's so loved, she so very alone. 
She can't share this burden for it can not be,
That this lively girl could be unhappy. 
So just next time look, see behind the mask,
Cos pretending each day must be a strenuous task.
I could go on and on, trying to explain her,
And her crazy life as our towns entertainer.
The ups the downs, the crazy nights that don't end,
And her amazing ability to always pretend.
But she's on real soon so I must go,
Go see her yourself.. and then you will know. 
Your going to love her you won't complain..
For this girl was clearly was born to entertain.

Queen **** up..

I'm finding it so hard to shake this boy,
Even thought im his verbal, punch bag toy,
No love or respect consistently shown,
And it's not going to change, for a while this Iv known,
Lies and sadness are burning my soul,
Pushing me further into this black hole,
But I stay! Scared! Afaid to be lonely,
Finding ways to make the darkness Homly,
The babies are sad and are hurting too,
You'd think that would be enough to finally get through,
But still I can't shake off this man,
Gullibly high on "im doing all I can"
THe tears leave my eyes so often, im drowning!
For the worlds biggest **** up I await my crowning,

:(

I feel so disconnected.. happiness? If only!
But I've locked myself away.. so distant.. so lonely..

I did it to myself, i purposely lost the key..
The one to get me out of the of these shackles, hurtung, holding me.

Nothing feels good. Nothing tastes the same..
And the worst demon of it all is that I'm the one to blame.

Oh **** me that superperb cup of tea!
You know the one? When the little ******* are finally in bed! The house is silent.. but your still hiding by your bed.. cos not one little ****** is spoiling this time. You get all ******* day but this 5 minutes is mine!
See the house now needs a clean cos your all so ******* messy! And you wonder why I'm always so ******* stressy?

Oh the simply devine, I'm on my 4th glass of wine.. you know that feeling? When your beautiful children are tucked up so tight.. please God let them sleep all night! I love them so much..

my beautiful angels x x x

Perfect skin, hair and nose..
Today I met my Raven Rose.
Her calming glow makes me stronger,
To meet this girl I couldn't wait no longer.
Together now for the rest of my time
She completes the pack, she's one of mine.
Tiny feet with tiny toes,
No one can love you more baby Raven Rose.

I get into bed....
I await my attack..




It's the that monster again!
Mr Insomniac

I got a mate who lives far away.. I call and I write cos I miss her each day,
The struggles she faces, by her side I should be! But there are many miles between her and me..
When we are lucky, we get to meet! We talk about nature and the shoes on our feet!
I share my **** and she shares her jack, we party all night till our heads hit the sack!
But then we go home and the fun has to end.. Missing you loads...

My far way friend ***

Nothing to write, not today.. The words in my head just don't want to play,
And now my head is a wondering mess, with all the jumbled up **** that I posses,
Silence in my house is extremely rare you know? It's distractions and noise that are running this show!
Iv doodled some stick men and Iv yelled at the kids, who are currently shouting and raiding the fridge.
No fun to be had, not now any way.. Iv gotta clean up! It's all work and no play,
And now all I want is some chocolate and sleep! Or maybe some wine to ensure the release,
What I'm cooking the clan is next on the agender, something healthy and nice to keep us all slender?
****** that! Tonight it's beans on toast.. Nothing fancy not even a roast!
Mum's on strike, mum's not happy.. Going mad with each changed *****!
But I'll carry on, ya know? "as you do" reminiscing of days when alone I went to the loo!
If your a poet parent you will know this too,
Writing with distractions is all you can do! X

She didn't know how to tell him, She was scared, and all alone,
Should she tell him to his face or just pick up the phone?
It was all so fresh and new, only months had past,
She knew what he would say "this is way to fast".

But still it grew every day,
With the words getting harder to say..

Maybe he will smile and hold her really tight,
Kiss her forehead over again and assure her it's alright,
It takes two to tango but alone you see her dance,
She's twiddling her thumbs, waiting for her chance....

"Honey.. I'm pregnant"