IF YOUR'E BEING HONEST
AND HE'S KEEPING SECRETS

IF YOUR'E MAKING LOVE
AND HE'S HAVING ***

IF YOU STAY HOME
AND HE'S ALWAYS GONE

IF YOUR'E ASLEEP ALONE
AND HE'S ON THE PHONE AT 3AM

I HATE TO TELL YOU
BUT THE LOVE IS GONE

If by chance we meet again
I hope you tell me I'm forgiven
for all the things I should have
said and done while you were living.

And when it,s time
for me to die
I find myself in Hell
You will know that
your revenge
Has been served
Sweet and well!

If I'd but known that I'd been given
but one Love in my lifetime
I gladly would have walked
the road alone

For surely to have the Love
of your life, the mate of your soul
so violently ripped from your arms
and your heart after so short a time.

The pure agony of no longer
having that bond,
I'd rather have remained ignorant
than left with such despair!|

How do you live
With a broken Heart
and half a Soul?

Today I'm going to take a trip
to the far recess of my mind
Hike a trail through my memories
and hope that I can find
a spot so sweet
that my memory retreats,

I'm going to search every path
follow every trail
til my soul is lost
between Heaven and Hell
and if my feet go astray
please guide my way,

and though I may not see your face
I will find your spirit
wrap myself within your Love
and hope I can feel it,

One last journey
I must take
for my Hearts sake!

My Mind Retreats

EACH
       DAY
            THAT
                 PASSES

          I'M                             HEAVEN
LAYING                          TO
      A                STAIRCASE
       BRICK    MY
              FOR

Watching you die.
     All Alone!
      
       WHY?

I knew a man with a heart of gold
and sunshine on his face
A loving husband and a father
that put others in first place,

I knew a man who was pure of heart
with faith that pulled him through
all the trials of his life
and he never asked his due,

I knew a man who found such joy
in just the little things
a man who saw with loving eyes
and loved church bell rings,

I knew a man with gentle ways
who was wise beyond his years
a man who raised his children well
and wiped away their tears,

I knew this man,I called him  Dad
He was kind in every way
He always stood tall and strong
and now he walks with God today.

You always loved giving me rainbows
I could always expect to get one after a fight
a couple of throws of your fists
a few kicks in the spleen every night.
They start out black add blood red
with a tinge of purple
Rainbows made by you.

A couple of days pass the bruises fade
you see ugly brown and yellow
My Rainbows made.
But now you're not happy
cause you can't find green
so you start another Rainbow
cause you're so **** mean.

Night after night you act so concerned
I can expect more Rainbows
at your every turn.

You always loved giving me Rainbows

"IS THIS MY *** OF GOLD?"
            















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I couldn't find you anywhere so I got out my Dictionary
and I looked under VICIOUS.CRUEL and INHUMANE
They sounded like you but your name wasn't there. So
I thought I'd look up THIEF, ABSCONDER and *******
They also sounded like you but again your name wasn't there,
So then I checked under PHYSCOPATH  AND MURDERER
these fit you better but I still couldn't find your name.

I panicked and got really worried then so I had a conversation
with GOD and I asked him please would he look in his book,
THE BOOK OF LIFE and see if he could find your name there

LO AND BEHOLD YOUR NAME ISN'T THERE
"MAY THERE BE NO MERCY ON YOUR SOUL!"

Just when I was putting my Dictionary away
GOD yelled out "FORGIVENESS"
So I look up forgiveness and GUESS WHAT!

"MY NAME IS NOT THERE!"

Maybe I should have looked up
THE DEFINITION OF DEFINITION

Come stranger Enter my Domain
Search and break the firewalls for the entrance to my life
One by one break through
and behind the last wall you will find
UTTER DEVOTION, LOYALTY AND TRUTH.
FRIENDSHIP THAT KNOWS NO BOUNDS,
SOMEONE TO LEAN ON IN GOOD TIMES AND BAD,
SOMEONE TO TALK AND LISTEN TO YOU AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY OR NIGHT but most of all you'll find LOVE that has no bounds
that never fails when others leave you.
You'll find respect for who you are, for what you believe in.

BUT I WARN YOU - ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!

If you ever want to leave me you'll always have the freedom to do so
But do it Gently and seal back the walls that you entered through
Then I can change the Password to my heart and the Username of my life, so then I can wait here until the next stranger comes along!

Please open the Book Lord
My times almost done
I must read more of
The Father  The Son,

Please turn the pages
and let me read on
Let me savor the words
Before I am gone,

Please turn them gently
The pages are worn
I've read them so much
The corners are torn,

Just one more page Lord
So I can recall
The Beautiful words that
you gave us all.

I ALMOST LOST YOU TODAY
ONE MOMENT YOU WERE HERE
WHERE I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU'D BE
THEN YOU STOPPED BREATHING.

MY WORLD TURNED UPSIDE DOWN
IN JUST A HEARTBEAT OF TIME
IN PANIC I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO
I JUST CAN'T TAKE YOUR LEAVING.

I THOUGHT I WAS RESIGNED
THAT MY HEART COULD LET GO
BUT NO I'M NOT READY YET
YOU'RE PART OF MY SOUL.

You rode into my life
on your black KNIGHT
and you stormed my CASTLE
with your charm,
Then you used your PAWNS
to keep me IN CHECK
and you told me you
were my KING.
I began to hate you so I
confessed to my BISHOP
but you made a fatal mistake.
You underestimated my Queen
and I escaped
CHECKMATE!!!
Any one else want to try Castleling?

We met on a Monday
                                            We flirted on a Tuesday
                                          We went on a date Wednesday
                                  
       We kissed on Thursday
                                          We had *** on Friday
                                             We got married Saturday
                                                We regretted it Sunday!