wonder if ill get to the day
where i can certainly say
"i promise you that im okay."
or if that day will tumble on
into the midst where others have gone
before it even gets to me
to let me know that i am free.

freckles of time
fly effortlessly by
leaving me behind.

diffused and confused
to wake up in a room
surrounded and scared
a group of strangers
wonders at my well-being
but what do i say to them?

constant pain
feeling faint
tired always
limbs shake
body aches
sugar fades
from my veins
so fast i fail
to reciprocate

i wonder what its like
to have a guy who finds
everything he needs
in just my eyes.