Nobody

Nobody Jul 2013

In the land of Temperature
I met Thermostat - Thermometer

What does thermometer do anyway?
A thermometer tells you the temperature whether it’s cold or hot
But it does nothing about the situation it identifies
It only measures and whether we like it or not
What about thermostat?
Thermostats function in a way that when it senses a room is cold,
it quickly and quietly starts the machinery necessary to bring the cold room to an acceptable temperature
If a room is hot, a thermostat cues the system to cool the room
It restores the balance, it assess the situation and make a difference.
I named her Thermostat – Thermometer
‘Cause she can be a thermostat to others
When she senses there’s something wrong around her
She always does something to make it right like a thermostat does
Sadly, she can only be a thermometer to herself
She knows there’s something wrong with her
Yet she can’t do something
‘Cause she also needs a thermostat
A thermostat to make it right for her

It makes me wonder how many people out there
Acting like thermostat to others
But they can only act as thermometer to theirselves
Hoping that someday
A thermostat changes the situation where they are in

Nobody Jul 2013

A Desperate Human Engineer

She sees herself as a machine,
Something that can be fixed
By a brilliant engineer, as herself

She's aware that she needs help
Yet she refuses every offer she gets
Cause she believes the broken ones
Can be fixed by brilliant engineers, like her

A day came when she doesn’t know herself no more,
So she tried to know herself once more
And rebuilt it like she used to rebuild a broken machine

Yes, she was slowly destroying herself
Like a mechanic engineer destroying
A broken machine
To know what’s wrong with it

Drugs for her brain
Toxic pills for her liver
Cigarettes for her lungs
Blades for her skin

She finally knew what’s wrong with her
And tried to fix herself once more
But none of her attempts worked
Instead, her attempts destroyed herself even more

She came to a realisation
That humans are no machines
Once broken, no one can fix them,
Not even themselves

Nobody Jun 2013

Drowning in the Dark

A part of her is being eradicated every night
Every time she goes to doze,
The darkness within her guzzles that part
Like a cloud casing the light of moon in the night

She woke up every morning longing for that part
A part of her vivid and memorable yesterday
That leisurely taken away from her
And gradually placing it with emptiness

A day came when darkness utterly frenzied
The diminutive radiance left in her
That day the old her was wholly vanished
Her exquisite self can be found nowhere

She’s alive but living without existence
Felt nothing but pain, emptiness, and loneliness
Those emotions used to be unknown to her
Yet became all she known after that tragic day

Light left her childlike eyes
Brimming with nothing but emptiness
Yet people seen her with overflowing love
Cause she lingered mysterious till the last beat of her heart

Nobody Jun 2013

No senses

I was in front of you but you just looked through me
I yelled at you but you didn't hear a single word
I punched you but you didn't feel anything
I sprayed a vanilla scent but you smelled nothing

I cried because I felt like I got stabbed in the heart
But you didn't notice because you were blinded by your sight
I faked a smile just for you to notice but all you saw was my lovely smile
I stopped talking just to show you I was in so much pain
But you just thought I needed some time alone

So I said I love you and good night
But you just said see you tomorrow and smiled
The next day I was found dead with a genuine smile
But all you saw was a damaged brunette you loved but ignored

— The End —