I’m making steps in the right direction
But my feet still seem to falter behind
I can’t help but mourn the loss
Of someone I no longer wanted
Just because I didn’t want him
Doesn’t mean he has no value
But still he was thrown away
Like last weeks leftovers
But I don’t want him to go to waste
Such genuine beauty
Shouldn’t be left to rot alone
He deserves all the things I couldn’t be
And he will find it
I have to believe that this isn’t it
He’ll find the love and passion
And he’ll realize that he found better
I can’t think for a second
That I destroyed a life
So pure and compassionate
For my own selfish needs
I have to know that this was the right thing
I have to hold onto my truth
That we were holding each other back
From what we truly needed
I have to
Because the alternative
Is too much for one person to bear
And I would crumble under the weight
Love will land on his doorstep
Happiness will settle like dust
On the furniture in this house
Where he’ll still be, fighting alone
He will find freedom and laughter
He will find himself in the ruins
And I won’t be there
And that will be okay