There used to be a sparkle in your eyes
every time we talked.
You used to look at the ground and smile
because you didn't want me too see you blush.
You used to praise me to your friends,
brag and show me off to the world.
What happened to that guy?
You used to say I was perfect.
That you loved everything about me,
without saying "I love you."
That was good, because sometimes I get scared.
Scared I get too attached, that things move fast.
But it was my fault.
I gave in and it changed you.
I gave you what you wanted,
and no longer was I perfect.
You got what you wanted
and you just left.
You made me fall for you.
Your words, your actions
everything was carefully orchestrated.
And now that you're back I can't deny you.
You hurt me but I'm still standing.
My friends think I'm insane
but I can't help myself.
I gave in again.
Even after you said it was a test.
But I'm still here,
trying to stand up once again.