when something tragic happens
people are there for us
they go with us through the break up
through death and pain
but with depression it is diffrent
because it doesn´t end
but people get sick of hearing
you are not fine
they want to see you recover
but I can´t
Depression is not a sickness you can get over
It follows you around
like a cloud blocking the sun
and now and then rain will pour down
and it will all come crashing in
It´s the never ending feeling of pain
of panic
of nothing
and then I feel bad
and I´ll self-pity myself
and now I feel so stupid
because there are people
people who have it worse
and here I am
drowning in self-pitiness
but that is exactly what depression feels like
It feels like I am drowning
while everyone else is breathing just fine
It feels like the fear you have when you miss a step
but you never reach the ground
so the fear won´t go away
It feels like ropes tie you down
you can not move
can not stand
I can not do anything
do anything right
and all I want is this to end
but the only solution seems so hard to procide
not even that, I can do
I am not doing good
but no one wants to hear about it
because it has been to long
without improvment
so I´ll just fake it
maybe if I tell myself long enough
I am fine
I will be
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 12:53 PM UTC
when something tragic happens
people are there for us
they go with us through the break up
through death and pain
but with depression it is diffrent
because it doesn´t end
but people get sick of hearing
you are not fine
they want to see you recover
but I can´t
Depression is not a sickness you can get over
It follows you around
like a cloud blocking the sun
and now and then rain will pour down
and it will all come crashing in
It´s the never ending feeling of pain
of panic
of nothing
and then I feel bad
and I´ll self-pity myself
and now I feel so stupid
because there are people
people who have it worse
and here I am
drowning in self-pitiness
but that is exactly what depression feels like
It feels like I am drowning
while everyone else is breathing just fine
It feels like the fear you have when you miss a step
but you never reach the ground
so the fear won´t go away
It feels like ropes tie you down
you can not move
can not stand
I can not do anything
do anything right
and all I want is this to end
but the only solution seems so hard to procide
not even that, I can do
I am not doing good
but no one wants to hear about it
because it has been to long
without improvment
so I´ll just fake it
maybe if I tell myself long enough
I am fine
I will be
