Five
years young
When you left
the first time
Seven
years young
When you came back
but not for long
Thirteen
years young
When you broke my heart
But it was just the beginning
Sixteen
years young
A book for my birthday
a thriller
I hate thrillers
But how should you know
Eighteen
years young
A card for my birthday
Just one request
A picture of me
So you can see your daughter's face
Twentyone
years young
One Call
Twentyone
years young
You died
Twentyone
years young
I buried you
Twentyone
years young
Just one request
A picture of you
Twentyone
years young
Time stopped
Twentyone
years young
You were young
and so am I
Why did you die
Why didn't I
Twentyone
years young
Where should I put them
all these words
all these feelings
meant for you
Twentytwo
years young
nothing matters
Twentytwo
years young
Auntie died
I bring both of you flowers
Twentythree
years young
Uncle died
I bring all three of you flowers
Twentyfour
years young
grandma died
I bring all of you flowers
Twentyfive
years old
not young anymore
I didn't bring flowers
only anger
Twentyfive
years old
I scream
I cry
But it doesn't change
You are dead
And so are they
And now
I am here
still
alone
more words
more feelings
and nowhere to put them
so next
take me
I can't bury anyone else
I miss you, Dad
Sincerely,
Your daughter.
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 10:59 AM UTC
she looks in the mirror
grabs her face cream
and as she applies it it down her neck
she looks at me and smiles
"don´t forget your neck" she says
otherwise only your face will stay young
since i can remember she was beauty
everyone always told me
but i was never her
i didn´t have her long hair or nails
that easy smile and grace
"you know my lips used to be just as full"
she says showing me old pictures
"i used to have fuller hair too"
she says stroking my hair
but i don´t anymore
It almost feels like a contest
you look skinny she says
i didn´t eat today she says
my mother is beautiful
but she doesn´t see it anymore
sometimes i forget she is more
more than just beauty
more than just my mother
who always carrys grace
that she is a person
my mother just turned fifty
"does this make me look fat" she asks
"do i look old" she asks
sometimes i believe she forgets too
that she is more than her beauty
that she is a person
Feb 5, 2023
Feb 5, 2023 at 5:44 AM UTC
For once I am not scared
Of the little man
Dancing tango in my stomach
To the sound of your voice
I dress myself in the smile
That surfaces from inside
And embrace the warmth
My heart feels for you
My body so light
It feels like floating
And my mind as calm
As the midnight sky
The drums in my heart
Are the rhythm I dance to
As my feet move
Over the grass
In bed I lay
My eyes closed
Smiling
Thinking of you
Jul 19, 2022
Jul 19, 2022 at 6:16 PM UTC
When it hurts so bad
that you can´t breathe
and your heart screams
as it shatters
lock them away
take my feelings
take them all
and bury them deep
But you took the good
and now I just feel empty
I forgot how to laugh
forgot how to love
so I´ll take them back
because all this pain
I will take it on me
to love you one more day
Jul 6, 2021
Jul 6, 2021 at 2:14 PM UTC
I´m quick to fall in love
but just as quick as I do
I fall out of love
every little inconvenience
and I think about running away
the smallest doubt
and I am questioning everything
Sometimes I just wish
I wouldn't feel as much
that just for once
I could silence my mind
To put an end
to this rollercoaster of fear
and anxiety
But on the days, I stop feeling
I forget who I am
because I feel like
I am just a bunch of emotions
and thoughts
Stuck in a body
this world gave me
and then I forget to exist
in the present
Feb 25, 2021
Feb 25, 2021 at 4:10 PM UTC
I wanna run
As fast as I can
And scream
As loud as I can
I wanna hit the wall
With all my strength
And break stuff
With all that anger
I wanna hide
In neverland
And cry
In pain
I wanna jump
With all reassurance
And never wake up
With all that sadness
I wanna laugh
As loud as I can
And dance
As long as possible
I wanna kiss
To feel alive
And live
To feel love
Oct 30, 2020
Oct 30, 2020 at 2:16 PM UTC
I just wish I was thinner
I just wish I was smaller
I just wish I was prettier
I just wish I wasn't me
I wanna cut of pieces of my body
I dont wanna look at it
I wanna throw up
I don't want this body
I can feel the the cold water
I can feel it in my empty stomach
I can feel the muscle ache
I can feel it burning
But it still isn't enough
And it will never be
No matter how hard I try
Because I wasn't enough
Oct 30, 2020
Oct 30, 2020 at 2:08 PM UTC
Somedays I break down
and somedays I cry
somedays the nights are hard
and somedays I don't stand up
Sometimes I can't hold it
and sometimes it hurts
sometimes the void gets bigger
and sometimes I can't get out
One day I will show you me
and one day I will be honest
One day I will be honey and glass
and one day you will see it
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:29 AM UTC
I know you, you´re like this
I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish to make you happy
Because you make me happy
and I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish you didn´t
So I will try my very best
and I know it´s not on me
but somedays I just wish
I just wish we were happy
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:26 AM UTC
It feels like I´m suffocating
being oppressed by my mind
so I will hideaway
till it gets better
And if I tell myself long enough
maybe I will believe it
and I will drown these demons
but I´ll drown with them
Please let me breathe
I wanna feel
but I am too afraid
of what will be
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:22 AM UTC