He used to come over and we'd fuck.
Then he would leave,
to go see her.
And I would wake up alone.
Over and over again,
I woke up alone.
Always alone.
Forgive me when it's hard
for me to say, "I miss you"
Never mind saying, "I love you"
I haven't done this before.
I'm selfish
I protect my damaged heart
Because next time, it won't make it through
I'm terrified
Normally by now, I've said goodbye
For one reason or another,
usually one that I've made up to sound legitimate
And I leave.
I leave before you can,
and before I'm left alone.
Again.
I could love you, if you let me
I've been waiting for you
The one that will stay,
The one that will run after me.