Surround myself in silence,
As I sit in this room.
Door's shut, blinds closed;
I'm accompanied by darkness and gloom.
Drowning myself with words you've said.
If only you knew the monsters I fight in my head.
The struggle to succeed,
The struggle to sustain,
To continue, to believe.
Believe in what sometimes I wonder.
When I feel like my whole life has been nothing but a tumble.
I've always been loyal,
& never too careful.
I've Never needed love
the way I feign yours
I've Never sought attention,
But some how your attention sends me through floors.