Time and time again,
I forgave you,
Every time you hurt me.
I took you back,
And you won my heart all over again.
But this time it's different,
You've hurt me one too many times,
And I don't know how much longer,
I can hold on..
You know there's a saying,
"Let go of them, if you truly love them."
Whether I let you go or continue to hold on,
I will always fucking hurt.
My scars don't reflect,
How deep my cuts and wounds really are.
Nor do they show,
All the pain and suffering you have put me through.
The tears that stream down my face,
As I write this..
They're all for you..
Some may call me stupid and pathetic,
For loving someone like you..
But please, please understand..
I am so very afraid of losing you.
Because you could be the best and worse thing that's ever happened to me,
And I don't know what to do..
I don't know if I want to let go,
And lose you..
But I know if I continue to hold on,
I'll lose you anyway..
So either way,
My choice will hurt me..
It will ruin me..
But what's the difference anyway?
Because you've already torn me apart.
You've already ruined me,
But you're too blind to see that.