I push you away
Roll my eyes on you
Put my hands in my hips
Till you leave
So I can cry
In bittersweet relief
Leave, I tell you
I do not care
I have myself
And that is all I need
But when you leave
I look out of the window
Watching you go
Praying you will turn around
Come back
And finally
See me
How I really am
But I can not show
I can not break
I need to be strong
So before I cry
I will scream
Before I break
I will go
The world has teached me
That those that show weakness
Will be run over
So I pretend
Till one day I don't have to
But you never turn around
And my heart
It keeps breaking
As I push you away
It scares me
How good I can lie
How I can pretend
To be stone cold
While I break
In silence
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 12:40 PM UTC
I push you away
Roll my eyes on you
Put my hands in my hips
Till you leave
So I can cry
In bittersweet relief
Leave, I tell you
I do not care
I have myself
And that is all I need
But when you leave
I look out of the window
Watching you go
Praying you will turn around
Come back
And finally
See me
How I really am
But I can not show
I can not break
I need to be strong
So before I cry
I will scream
Before I break
I will go
The world has teached me
That those that show weakness
Will be run over
So I pretend
Till one day I don't have to
But you never turn around
And my heart
It keeps breaking
As I push you away
It scares me
How good I can lie
How I can pretend
To be stone cold
While I break
In silence
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