#stonecold
Stone cold... these are the affection of my bed, nestled beside the fireplace, upon stone cold I lay my head; your warmth it no longer knows.
The longevity of nights have passed; now cruel and aching memories are your laughs; now, before my hearts retrieves its mask, a final kiss to you, my past.
Dec 23, 2020
Dec 23, 2020 at 1:20 PM UTC
I push you away
Roll my eyes on you
Put my hands in my hips
Till you leave
So I can cry
In bittersweet relief
Leave, I tell you
I do not care
I have myself
And that is all I need
But when you leave
I look out of the window
Watching you go
Praying you will turn around
Come back
And finally
See me
How I really am
But I can not show
I can not break
I need to be strong
So before I cry
I will scream
Before I break
I will go
The world has teached me
That those that show weakness
Will be run over
So I pretend
Till one day I don't have to
But you never turn around
And my heart
It keeps breaking
As I push you away
It scares me
How good I can lie
How I can pretend
To be stone cold
While I break
In silence
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 12:40 PM UTC
I'm slowly losing my emotions.
As everyone always told me.
I used to
laugh
cry
and everyone always told me it's too much.
Too much of this and that.
They told me,
they could never imagine me,
to love someone
to be romantic
to be this kind of girl.
They told me,
that I am
a cold-hearted
a emotionless
a stone cold *****
Always too much or too less,
never enough.
I'm simply never enough,
not enough of this and that.
Do you really wonder why,
I'm sick of showing emotions?
Sep 22, 2018
Sep 22, 2018 at 7:35 PM UTC