hands shaking
lungs cease
wanna run
but I cant breathe
knee bounces
people yell around me
I try i do
I cant really sleep
most nights I just stare at the ceiling
thinking about my day
and how much I hate myself
my hair
my body
me
I hate me
but I love me too
hold on that sounds crazy
how can I love myself
and hate myself?
because I like myself some days I put a smile on my face
and I go about my day
then there are days where I put a fake smile
on my face and act
I act
I fake it
I wear baggy clothes
and hoodies
not just because they are comfortable
but because I hate myself.
I try to ignore the yelling
I push my emotions down till I cant
I hide in my room and cry
or at least I did
I cant cry alot anymore
I'm scared
I'm scared of myself
I'm scared of people leaving
I'm just scared
I'm just a teen girl
what did I do to deserve this?
this anxiety
this hate for myself
what did I do