there's beauty in the flowers
there's beauty in the trees
there's beauty in the showers
and the great blue seas
but then it reminds me of you
and now it's ugly again
the pollen makes me sneeze
the leaves block out the sun
the coldness makes me wheeze
your face ruined the fun
stupid, stupid!
when will you know?
that "do you like me"
is a fucking yes-or-no!
a black and white,
nothing in between.
but your answer, oh my,
was the nastiest gray i've ever seen!
"not now", what's what supposed to mean!?
what was I supposed to do?
your lack of emotion made me want to scream,
why did i fall in love with you?!
they say love is beautiful,
the reward of life.
but fuck this shit!
i'd rather die.
than to live with this feeling,
to swat it away, like flies
but then it comes back,
and i must tell myself more lies
lies that i hate you,
lies that you're bad,
they hurt so much
because you were all I ever had.
your smile was my sunlight,
your laughter was a cool breeze,
you kept me up at night,
yet i knew you'd never love me
so to rid myself of this burden
i must cancel it out
but if you're still out there,
if you're thinking about me too,
please don't ever know
that i still love you.