I feel numb, stuck, trapped
My insecurities get worse each day
I miss my extroverted self
I don't know where I've gone?
I'm existing; not living
I'm not unhappy, I am not sad
I'm apathetic : neither here nor there
No movement, nothing changes
Yet my life, my home, myself ...
Have changed beyond recognition
I am using this nothingness to heal
Educate, restore, fix, mend
In the stillness, I find my soul
My brain refuses to acknowledge it
Mindset is in quandary, undecided
Body is aging before my own eyes
Soul is vulnerable , yet open
Honesty is blunt, uncomfortable for some, but necessary
Old friends question and probe
New friends acquired along the road
Baggage weighs heavy
I can not put it down
These are the ramblings of the mentally unwell
Emotionally unstable, is my label
I wear it well: you really couldn't tell
Unless you are reading this
I'll pretend and disguise the panic in my eyes
Censor my language, no triggers spoken
Not to alarm, not to self harm
Just keep quiet, be good, continue to be misunderstood
Sep 28, 2016
Sep 28, 2016 at 11:31 AM UTC
I feel numb, stuck, trapped
My insecurities get worse each day
I miss my extroverted self
I don't know where I've gone?
I'm existing; not living
I'm not unhappy, I am not sad
I'm apathetic : neither here nor there
No movement, nothing changes
Yet my life, my home, myself ...
Have changed beyond recognition
I am using this nothingness to heal
Educate, restore, fix, mend
In the stillness, I find my soul
My brain refuses to acknowledge it
Mindset is in quandary, undecided
Body is aging before my own eyes
Soul is vulnerable , yet open
Honesty is blunt, uncomfortable for some, but necessary
Old friends question and probe
New friends acquired along the road
Baggage weighs heavy
I can not put it down
These are the ramblings of the mentally unwell
Emotionally unstable, is my label
I wear it well: you really couldn't tell
Unless you are reading this
I'll pretend and disguise the panic in my eyes
Censor my language, no triggers spoken
Not to alarm, not to self harm
Just keep quiet, be good, continue to be misunderstood
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