Jeju: Poems

Jeju Apr 2023

Forgive me,
I need you.
I know the side of you
That you push down.
I shouldn't have lied
You were honest,
But you suffocated me;
You shouldn't have done that;
And I shouldn't have lied.
Even though we lie apart,
I still feel your breath on mine.
I still remember your face and the way you spoke to me...
Oh, how I can still feel that.
Will you feel the same way too?
Do you feel the same way?
How will I know if you're still under the same sky as me?
Can you feel me standing next to you?
Or is it all my imagination and hopes?
How can I feel this to be real again,
When you're not even next to me?

Leo Lin

you were never mine to keep

Jeju Apr 5

you were never mine to keep

i wish i never met you.
it's not because you hurt me,
but because loving you has been the most
silent, isolating and lonely kind of suffering i've ever experienced with anyone.
if i had known from the start that my heart would end up aching for someone who could never be mine,
i would have turned away before it was too late.
where am i to store all this heartache?
i have spent so many nights wondering what it would feel like to be the one you chose.
and yet, despite everything, i still love you.
even though it hurts.
even though it's hopeless.
if loving you meant hurting like this,
then i hope i never learn to love again.
i should've known you were never mine to keep.

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