You make me feel crazy
But maybe it's not your fault
Because they made you run away from the truth
Now you're a mother
And you feel the need to protect us
Even the smallest wounds
Because that's just who you are
You and me have the same feeling of when betrayed
No one understands a mother-daughter relationship more
After your escape
You've put so much flames in the air
And I'm glad you found your voice
But you burn me every time you tell
Because I know no one else listens
But when I'm the only one
I can't handle it as well as I used to before
Because I'm not 12 years old anymore

Forgive me,
I need you.
I know the side of you
That you push down.
I shouldn't have lied
You were honest,
But you suffocated me;
You shouldn't have done that;
And I shouldn't have lied.
Even though we lie apart,
I still feel your breath on mine.
I still remember your face and the way you spoke to me...
Oh, how I can still feel that.
Will you feel the same way too?
Do you feel the same way?
How will I know if you're still under the same sky as me?
Can you feel me standing next to you?
Or is it all my imagination and hopes?
How can I feel this to be real again,
When you're not even next to me?

You were too close
Way way too close
I felt you around my neck
Where I should never feel anyone
I did push first
But you pushed harder
And you were able to defeat me
"You'll grow into someone beautiful"
LIAR.
"You'll succeed in life, I believe you"
LIAR.
"I love you"
LIAR.
YOU. ARE. A. LIAR.
I almost died
And in real life this time.
I wasn't dreaming or thinking...
This was real.
What happened was REAL.
"It was your fault / You started it / They shouldn't have touched you / That's embarrassing / This is disappointing"
That's what y'all said
When I almost fell...
Forever

Can't breathe
Barely breathing
I have nothing inside of me that's left
What do you want?
From this emptiness
---I'm going to lose you
It's fine
I guess
I will find another replacement
A replacement after a replacement
Exhausting
Might end it

It was only 2 years ago,
but it still feels like yesterday
And I think that I'm still in love with you
And I hate that you've moved on,
because in my heart
I know that you and me are
Meant To Be

Your words felt like sharp blades
attacking my face.
Everything you said to me felt like
you were suffocating me.
I couldn't breathe.
The way you approached me
scares me.
I think you've always scared me.
I'm sorry they failed you, me and him.
But it's not my fault.
Not your fault.
Not his fault.
Not our fault.
So please,
don't keep throwing sharp blades at me.
Because it hurts.
A lot.

Each time that you step on me,
I pinch myself.
You step on me harder each time,
you don't care what comes out of my mouth.
Because to you
I'm a filthy liar.
A *******.
A *****.
An annoying teenager.
A low-lifer that won't get anywhere.
But you're not me.
You take out your anger
On me.
It hurts.
Even if I say no,
you walk over that,
and make it yes.
If only you listened.
If only you heard.
If only you cared.
If only you were me.