Each time that you step on me,
I pinch myself.
You step on me harder each time,
you don't care what comes out of my mouth.
Because to you
I'm a filthy liar.
A *******.
A *****.
An annoying teenager.
A low-lifer that won't get anywhere.
But you're not me.
You take out your anger
On me.
It hurts.
Even if I say no,
you walk over that,
and make it yes.
If only you listened.
If only you heard.
If only you cared.
If only you were me.

Going through it with you
Has had to be one of the best things
For me to ever experience with a human being.
I think seeing you love me,
hate me,
and leave me,
was the best thing to experience with you.
You loved me, and I loved that.
You hated me, and I needed that.
You left me, and I carried that.
Even though my heart doesn't beat for you,
there will always be a part of me
that will always love you.
No matter what

Blocked
Stuck in the same position
Lit on fire
Bullets fired
Legs shaking
Mind racing
Throat choked
Heart beating
Face sweating
I don't know what I wanna do
To make sure that
I don't just exist
I also live

You don't understand
You don't get it
You're not trying to help me
You can't help me
Something about the way you keep pulling me in
And then pulling me out
Just to pull me back in again is exhausting
I know I'm not what you wanted
But aren't I human too?
Don't I matter?

I let you cut me
I let you cut me in my already cut wounds
I let you puppet me like a doll
I let you attack me
I let you push me down
I let you trip me
I let you almost hit me
I let you fucken **** me so bad,
that I almost killed myself.
Just for you.

A swollen heart
With a swollen soul
They don't get it
They won't get it
Jealousy, Anger, Hatred
The **** did I ever do
To make you not want me
The way I do you
Disaster
Corruption
Sabatoge
It's too bad
We're strangers
Again

It didn't hurt as much when you spoke to me
Because it burned less
It didn't affect me as much as it used to
It still hurt but
It wasn't a new feeling
Something about you trying to **** me this time again
Didn't hurt me
Because I'd been killed many times before that
For a long time
As long as I could remember