I seen you the other day,
In my dream
I've never felt so lonely.  
Sitting here tonight,
I'm missing you more then ever
I still **** at poems.
But I simply don't care.
I'm alone in this life here.
I thought I knew what loneliness was
This changes it all.
There is nothing I want more
But I can't take this back.
I want to say I've learned...
Not to say what I don't mean
But I do it so fluently now.  
Break these sentences down,
Try to pass it as a poem.
While I pass this off as a life

To cast light upon shadows
To welcome silent moments
To see through the dark
To remember to breathe
To find humour in all
To watch the sun trade for stars
To forget the world
To treat all with care
To speak with passion
To learn and grow

Where are you my friend?
I know you search too.

Would you recognize me,
Given we meet again?
Or do I chase dreams.
Time is our only battle.
I'm think I'm experiencing hopelessness..  in the most beautiful way.

Here's to all.
All of your cheers.
Here's to the new year.
Where we will finally.
Finally take care of problems.
Or maybe leave them behind.
Everything's gonna be great
I'll start doing right
Next year
Here's to the week.
That proves us all procrastinators,
All in the delusion of time.
In just 4 hours,
I'll be a better person
Yet for now,
I'll sit here smoking cigarettes.
Drinking this lonely beer.
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Drink beer of the light variety.
Maybe next time,
Maybe next year.
For now.
I'll have my beer
And watch as you
As you all improve
Improve your lives.
Next year.
See you then.

Someone give me a gun,
I'll show you how this done.
Someone, give me a gun.
I'll show you when this is done.
Someone gave me a gun.
I'll show you how this is done,
Someone gave me a gun.

Where's your soul
Couldn't you just
Let down your walls
Have you forgotten
Or am I forbidden
The lack of knowing
Ignorances bitter taste
Where's the shovel
I'm digging my way in
It's cold out here
I can feel your warmth
Begging to come out
I want your warmth
I'll take it as my own
Through blood
Whoever it lies
I will find it

It's all a game
Your name
Isn't the same
So much changed
These mere names
Their not the same
But you are he
One live ago,
You were there
I wouldn't dare
Call you another

I still hold on
To one live ago
We swore we'd remember
I promised to find you
Before these names
Things changed
I'm apathetic
It took so many
Years of loneliness
You've forgotten
I've only just remembered
These names
If only
These names
Stayed the same.