i watch you tossing from a shadowed doorway.
hand by face, a silent moan, a dream forever hidden upon awaking.
drinking to quench a thirst, but never slaking.

i long to be the direction of your dreams and
wait for you at your journey's end.

i watch your breathing, from close by. i hear your heartbeat,
i feel your heat. i lay by your side pulling close to your slumbering outline
hoping that the smile on your face is of my design.

i long to be the direction of your dreams and
wait for you at your journey's end.

i watch you sleeping and wonder how your dreams progress.
a smile, silent laugh, a dream flowing towards a raging river.
emotions unchecked. pleasure filled, waking you with a shiver.

if you have dreams like me

you dream of running. you dream of being pursued. you run down paths created by flights and fancy. you hide in holes deep and dark. you can't run. you can't hide.

the creature that pursues you has an indomitable will and is fueled with a indeplenishable store of energy. it doesn't know fear. it doesn't show weakness. it doesn't tire.

it is knowable intellect against unknowable power. there is no winning.

when i wake, i know the runner is where i am. the pursuer is where i want to be.

i am fearful of the future and energized by the possibilities.

if you don't have dreams like me...

i am sorry.

Present dilemma
Feet moving, but can't see my legs
Sun fading away

Past is never dead
Clouds drift in front of the sun
Nothing more to say

Future uncertain
Heart of gold, wings fiery red
Heavy feet of clay

I was but a child
Knowing all about all and
In madness I raved

I was but a boy
Dancing and playing in sin
On streets that I paved

I was but a man
Heading for a painful death
Sun’s Grace, I am saved

Lightly, brightly come
My mind leaves the trodden path
And strolls with the clouds

Flowing, growing go
Above the tree-line I float
Chasing after stars

Singing, bringing hope
Planting seeds of rain, of life
To fall back on me

don't work, don't get paid.
try to ****** or never get laid.
if you don't run, you won't get tired.
if you **** up, you will get fired.

don't start, never get done.
you better look or you'll never get one.
if you don't wash, you won't get clean.
if you go out, you will get seen.

don't exist, never will be.
try to watch or you will never see.
if you don't eat, you never will grow.
if you learn, you will finally know.

don't love, won't get burned.
don't stray or you will get turned.
if you don't hate, you will get far.
if you don't drive, you don't need a car.

don't dance, if you don't know the move.
don't sing, if you don't have the groove.
you can't advance unless you know the man.
just act, if you already have a plan.

don't die, won't miss the end.
try not to blink or you'll miss the bend.
don't marry, if you can't handle a wife.
do not stop or you'll miss your own life.

she is the wind
blowing cool through an open window,
caressing exposed skin,
giving me shivers and
ordering hairs to stand at attention.
when i open my eyes
i see only the evidence
of her passing.

she is the wind
hanging heavy on a summer day;
...sweat beads burst from skin,
her warm touch licks them as
they roll down my face.
when i reach for her
i feel only the heat
on my fingers.

she is the wind
rustling the leaves of my soul,
swaying branches of my tree,
causing overripe memories to
fall to the ground;
leaving me bare and vulnerable
and uncertain of the future.
when i look for her
she is inside me; outside me;
and all around.
she is the wind.

lois, i can not be your lover
because, there is a thin line
between hero and villain
when a woman is involved.

I love you so much and/or now more than ever
You inspire me to be better and/or to be clever
You are so beautiful and/or so stunning
You call and I get moving and/or start running

I love you so much and/or more than I admit
When you are sad, I give in and/or submit
My goals are to fill you with joy and/or happiness
And to end and/or mitigate your pains and/or distress

I love and/or cherish your wit and/or your mind
Someone better, I could never come across and/or find
I love and/or desire your body and/or your touch
I crave and/or pine for you a lot, greatly and/or so much

To say that I am glad and/or happy would be to understate
It is your love that fills me, completes me, and/or permeates
I can speak endlessly and/or forever of what my feelings entail
Like my words and/or thoughts, my love will not cease and/or fail

give and keep on giving
live but never living
to have suffered
and for others
to use that as
a reason to
keep on suffering

play and keep on playing
say but never saying
to have argued
use today's words
tomorrow to
keep on arguing

lie and keep on lying
cry but never crying
to have waited
for that someone
for that anyone
but tonight i
keep on waiting

son,
you will have success;
you will try and win;
you will start to rise;
and then you fall.

falling is your life;
rising up your choice.
life is a cycle
and you will fall.

you will have failures;
you will try and lose;
but if you despair;
then you will surely die.