Olivia

Olivia Dec 2021

it’s been so long. why do i still love you like this?
like the day i met you and found myself lost in your being.
like the night we laughed and very, very nearly kissed.
like the time i saw you in the moonlight and my eyes had never beheld such beauty.
like the moment i ran a red light because you were so captivating.
like when i held you and made that moment eternity in my mind only.
like our plans for our wedding, our home, our children.
like you are my forever and ever and ever.
why do i still love you like this??

Olivia Dec 2021

My Favorite Music

My favorite music was the way your fingers curled as you slept
How you gently plucked the strings of oxygen surrounding us
What a lovely tune.

My favorite music was the way your mouth moved as you spoke
How you set the metronome of my heart to a hundred beats per minute
What a grand song.

My favorite music was the way your body flowed like silk
How you strummed the moonlight encircling you
What a stunning melody.

You are my favorite composer.

I still sing the chorus sometimes.

Olivia Nov 2021

Myself

Tonight, I'm falling in love with myself.
I will study her hands so closely,
I will marvel at each line.

Tonight, I'm falling in love with myself.
I will hug her body so tightly,
I will be so glad she's mine.

Tonight, I'm falling in love with myself.
I will love the way her hair falls,
I will cherish all her time.

Tonight, I'm falling in love with myself.
I will want her sense of humor,
I will smile at how she's kind.

Tonight, I'm falling in love with myself.

Olivia Sep 2021

Moving On?

How am I supposed to sleep at night
When I the way I am coping
Is by hoping I can pull you out of someone else's eyes?

But when there's so much room in my heart
For love and I can see a distant spark
What am I supposed to do but take this shot in the dark?

How am I supposed to rise at day
When the way I am surviving
Is by thriving, but am I? Or am I dying?

All of my dreams of you begin to fade
Our future, our life, our children
The dress I saw you in won't fit another anyway

How am I supposed to breathe the air
When the way I am existing
Is by forgetting every second; were you ever there?

Your mother told me I could take care of her
Chapters in a book that go unwritten
The story I would have given begins to blur

How am I supposed to feel free
When I was so secure
I was so sure of you and me?

Olivia Jun 2021

Easy

How easy it is to be with you again.

Olivia May 2021

Sitting

we sat.
a woman passed.
she said,
"you look like you're enjoying each other."
she added,
"or the day."
you said,
"we're enjoying the day."
I was enjoying you.

Olivia May 2021

somewhere in the past

somewhere in the past, I am looking on You for the first time.
You make me smile, and we walk for far too long.

somewhere in the past, my palms are sweaty for the first time.
Yours are too, and we laugh about it.

somewhere in the past, I am hearing You laugh for the first time.
You are so beautiful when you laugh, and it makes me happy.

somewhere in the past, You are holding me for the first time.
You are so comforting, and every time we're together, I don't let go.

somewhere in the past, we are falling in love for the first time.
You are everything, everything, everything, and I am obsessed.

somewhere in the past, we are watching our show entwined.
You are forever and ever and ever, and I am content.

somewhere in the past, we are planning our future.
You are in a wedding dress in Washington and Oregon and Colorado and I am so lucky.

somewhere in the past, we are still together.

You told me you felt safe in my arms, too. I'll hold onto that.