Life's trials and tribulations have actually taught me a little something.
It taught me that my heart's capacity is large enough to withstand both joy and sorrow. And that my mind is strong enough to bring in chaos and peace. It just all makes perfect sense.

It's not about wanting to be  something
it's about excepting  everything
And maybe finally I don't want to be her:
"Perfect"
but maybe I want to revel in my own complexity.

this is our song
by the lake
with shining lights lining the deck,
though you shine much brighter.

this is citronella
on our skin
trying and failing
to keep the bugs at a distance
though you hold me closer.

this is sunset
among the clouds
the clouds that bloom not a drop of rain
though my eyes shed enough rain for the both of us.

this is a happy time
a safe moment in a flat state
in a lover's arms
a wonderful peace of mind.

I could never be happier
for a citronella sunset evening.

je t'aime*
one way of a thousand ways to say I love you
*because I do

i like to swing on creaky swings
go outside, lie down in the grass and listen to the birds sing.
I like to take walks in the woods and spend time in the sun
I guess this is just my kind of fun.
Now it's getting chilly
and my lack of fun is really quite silly.

I still enjoy the fun
And I know,
that when every day is done
another sunrise
makes me love life so.

it grows colder in a small room with a fan.
she grabs and holds on to a pillow, as if it were him. as if it were anyone, hugging her back and offering warmth and safety. the artist's lyrics charm her like a snake, and she cant escape them. her nails are chipped and her face is wet. shes still searching.

When I take a stroll
Down the street
From my thoughts I take a toll
My walk in the rain
It helps
It erases the pain
Washes away; my soul it cleans
A lot of people wonder why I love rain so much
They don't know what to me; it truly means.

I love the ocean
The waves and their wishes keep my
mind and eyes open.
The hint of salt in the breeze;
so  perfect
**it puts my brain and heart at ease.
Sorrows of plenty not forgotten
but beside the sea
they're temporarily lost; at least until the tide's in.

Tik Tok of the fainting clock,
still time it tells.

Drip Drop of the faucet,
not of a wishing well.

Chiming Chiming of the wind,
setting many spells.

Love can not be won,
it can not prevail.

But as I'm faint, wishing, weeping....
only Time will tell.

leaves
So colorful, but makes trees bare
the atmosphere
I love the cool, crisp air
October 10*
A day I will celebrate and share

could I just
give you a warm embrace
or touch your beautiful face?

if I could
you *know I would.

can you not
continue being what I thought
you should've been all the years that I've sought?

as I wrap myself in a sea of roses,
     when you think dreams have taken me,
you still whisper sweetness you think I’ll never hear.

hope
it's over come my other emotions
it's built up
only to be broken down by fools.

hope is awful
it burns my heart and brain
like a bonfire lit with gasoline.

It’s true, I don’t know what the future holds
but I pray to God that you are in it

I want to be your pretty little thing
with a pretty little ring on my hand

I fell in love too hard, too long.
A little girl, a too sad song.

I like flowers, that much is true.
I’ve picked a bouquet of oopsie daisies,
because that’s what it’s like loving you.

I’ve gotten so used to seeing your sleepy smile before I drift away, that tonight will be difficult.

I miss you, but I won’t force it.

I can't forget
The things you've said
And that's something I regret

If I hadn't been there
If I hadn't been listening so closely
Then I wouldn't have heard what you didn't want to share

Some secrets that
I just cannot keep though I try
Secrets that when inside make me weep and wish I had not heard your
*little chat

It is never the gun that shoots itself,
therefore it is the
lover
and not the
love
that hurts us all.

oversized hoodies.
pumpkin spice.
autumn mist.
fainting leaves.
falling in love.

beautiful
Is really all I can say
Your eyes like the sun;
Light up my day
Like the ocean;
Deep with a hint of blue
A tint of green
But that's what makes you
you

The
Darkness
Scowls
The
Lonely
Wolf
It
Howls

Oh
The
Night
Is
Filled
With
Fright

Jump
And
Scare
And­
Simply
Beware

mr lyric writer,
write a song for me,
put it on display
for everyone to see?

mr vocalist,
sing your heart out please,
may I love you forever
as your songs never cease.

True love comes in many forms.
The most different and unique is for Hunter.

True love is calling non-stop
from miles away
to make sure I didn’t cut
I had put the blade away.
True love is that care
the “you’re beautiful” stare
and the endless beauties you’ve shown me.
In the form of saving my life,
fixing our fights,
and helping me stay on track.
In the form of your kisses
and your “sweet dream” wishes,
in the form of my favorite song.
You’re in my head and my heart,
you made everything right when it was all wrong.

Yes Hunter,
I’m in love with you now
and I feel that I will be
until the death parting vow.
Forever and always watching out for me.
Doing what others can’t
being what I’ll always need.

oh the sun; when it rises
painting the sky in beautiful surprises.

oh the sun; mid day
warm rays beaming in a really too hot way.

oh the sun; coming upon night
this is when we say goodbye to the sun's too bright light.