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Aug 2018 · 217
there she blows
Olivia A Keaton Aug 2018
my sides are carefully caressed,
and my hair is played with in the most random of ways.
the wind spoke to me today, through the tree leaves, and for a second I stopped.
The wind and her flirtatious ways reminded me of you. And I smiled.
O.K
Aug 2018 · 129
Untitled
Olivia A Keaton Aug 2018
Rain has fallen from my eyes
      oh I’d say a couple dozen times.

But when you, my sun, came into view
      my tears became rainbows because of you.
O.K
Aug 2018 · 181
sleepy sweetness
Olivia A Keaton Aug 2018
as I wrap myself in a sea of roses,
     when you think dreams have taken me,
you still whisper sweetness you think I’ll never hear.
O.K
Aug 2018 · 115
carnival
Olivia A Keaton Aug 2018
last night.
dark, night sky.
carnival lights.
balloons being POPPED, POPPED, POPPED
      by darts.
people screaming with joy.
and a teenage girl hyped up on lemonade sugar.

everything was perfect.
O.K
Aug 2018 · 135
Inferno
Olivia A Keaton Aug 2018
You set my heart on fire.

Even all of my tears haven’t been able to extinguish it.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 170
oh
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
oh
I’ll never say it again,
     at least not out loud.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 183
picking daisies
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I find myself plucking petals from a sun,
a game once played by a young girl,
singing sing song words just for fun.

Today I’m picking daisies,
and going crazy.

Asking myself rather he loves me or not,
destroying poor flowers,
in hopes to fill my heart spot.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 149
stuck in the middle
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I’m caught between wanting to love you,
and dreading it entirely.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 180
zap!
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I wonder when bugs fly into that blue zapping light,
before they die,
does their life flash along with their body?
O.K
Jul 2018 · 214
part of the party
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
as the sun lays to rest in the blankets of the Indianan lake,

as small raindrops (or tears?) fall from above to grace the “different kind of heat,”

as a slow song no one knows, plays itself through the buzzy speakers, with fireworks in the distance,

as everyone holds onto their love,

I can’t help but not caring what they say about me loving you.
I can’t help but want to be the one swaying and laughing in your arms.
And I don’t really mind.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 202
unintended
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
do you think I meant to fall for him?

no. but I don’t necessarily want to stand back up.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 149
Untitled
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
True but a pity that no one wants to clean up someone’s spilled milk.

i guess we’re all tired of childish messes
O.K
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
There’s always a price to pay,
for when the sun sets and calls it a day.

Always a cause for my scars,
a beautiful twinkle from the night stars.

There’s always a blade, not a knife,
a favor, excuse for this life.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 190
Untitled
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
you caught me.
I’m hooked.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 102
I can’t tell you
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
and to think
I thought;; and spoke
the absolute world of you.
O.K
Why is everything so complicated though?
Jul 2018 · 156
a sharp mind
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I remember odd things
like a word tossed in a car
years ago.

And I just wished that someone cared.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 222
Tumbling in Roses
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
toss and turn
a love to learn
a tear to spill
a heart to ****
a rose for me, but a bullet for you
tumbling in roses is fun, but there’s always thorns too.
O.K
We love roses. I love you.
Jul 2018 · 149
happy 4th
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
but there were no fireworks
more beautiful
or
more explosive
than the ones between our lips would have been.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 148
jdb
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
jdb
We started talking.
It was a Thursday.
We haven’t stopped since.

Happy birthday
O.K
Jul 2018 · 274
the hoot owl
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
no. not the one outside my window,
high in a tree somewhere,
hoot hoot hooting the night away.

but the hoot owl shift, the one late at night.
the shift of work, of love, that I live.

during sun hours, don’t talk to me,
don’t speak to you.

but during the night,
when the stars and moon flicker about,
darling that’s win our spirits come out.

talking all night, sleep during the day.
maybe I’m a hoot owl, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 101
paranoia
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I’m so paranoid that every time you say I’m pretty it’s a lie.
Or when you say I’m sweet.
Or when you promise I’m perfect.
When you speak words like sugar,
and when you say you want to hold me near, I can’t help but wonder if you know it’s what I want to hear.
Maybe you’re just using me,
maybe I’m kinda sad,
maybe I thought you were with it,
maybe I fell so bad.
O.K
I just want it to be real one time
Jul 2018 · 130
the body to the soul
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
Let’s start from the top.

Strawberry strands that may as well be
g o l d e n.

Perfect and pure, like the lips,
kisses to be stolen.

Light eyes full of promises, crystal cool,
a teardrop of an angel in life’s swimming pool.

A voice so sweet and special you see,
especially when he talks,
((tells secrets to me.))

Collar bone ledges that are beautiful just as they’re there,
standing on the edge for a breath of fresh air.

A perfect snow body, pretty like this are few, pale and perfect.
Perfectly you.

All of this body wraps up into one,
into a person so perfect, my work here is done.
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Jul 2018 · 125
the soul inside
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
his heart seems as pure
as the sun’s sunny rays.
And
his smile hides away
my super rainy days.

A person so sweet, soft to touch
a person like this is few, not enough.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 241
clueless perhaps
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
I’m realizing there’s more and more I do not know.
Like how tall each mountain stands or which way rivers flow.
I think that maybe I’m clueless perhaps
clueless about the love that we have.
O.K
Jul 2018 · 134
virtual reality
Olivia A Keaton Jul 2018
it’s so real that your brain
      ((A powerful thing))
is fooled in believing you’re actually there.

I want to be there with you.
In real life, but an altered version of my reality.
One with luck, with love.
Everything beautiful.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
a set up for disaster
these people I’m
c
  h
   a
    s
     i
      n
       g
after.

When I catch them, I never know what to do.
I guess I’ll smile, shrug, and say
“ha! got you!”
O.K
Jun 2018 · 251
always j
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
I bet someone’s fallen,
       you just never knew.

Because it’s me,
       I’ve fallen for you.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 228
.
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
.
I’m drowning my sorrows
     and stealing tomorrows.
Now why should that be a crime?
     if a tomorrow is borrowed, it’s a waste                    
            of my time.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 89
This Type of Love
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
You loved her, that was plain to see.
You loved with a love that isn’t put simply.

You loved her like the rain,
so pretty from afar, but you wanted to take shelter, and hide when she falls.

You loved her like a peach,
sweet and hard to resist. Everything was cool until you got to her pit.

You loved her like winter, comfortable in a sweater. But with the least bit of cold, you pretend you haven’t met her.

You loved her like the sun, shining oh so beautifully bright. But you ran away when she lost her will to fight.

You loved her, and that much is true.
But you loved her in a way that was convenient for you.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
A girl. Saddened.
But her insurance won’t pay for the shrink anymore.
Cause her mama got married, to a man that’s never round. A man that had too, lived in this sleepy town.
Don’t forget about her friends,
the ones that barely exist. The ones that taunt and tease her, the ones with balled up fists.
Even though some try, they never stick around. They always give right up on her and it’s often caused her to frown.
Forgetting to take her meds always,
because she’s just a kid. Meds for her health, but is she even sick?
Good golly gracious, she says that a lot. When things go wrong or she finds her self in an unlucky spot.
Hello, I’ve cried today. The normal, red eye look, thank god it was all over a midnight sun book.
I can’t believe the girl, the one she used to be. With the cute blonde curls, and happy family.
Just wait a minute. Let me talk to you,
stick around to read this thing and maybe you’ll learn too.
Keaton, that’s her last name, a gift from her dad. The perfect man that helps her remember the good times she’s had.
Listen very closely. I’ve lost my will to speak, lost my want to fight because I’ve gotten weak.
Mama’s always gone, all of the time.
She’s never even around to read my HePo rhymes.
No, even when she’s here, I’m all alone.
She’s locked up in her room, or on that telephone.
Oh what I’d give to take a trip on back.
To take a stroll amid my young past.
Papa (grandpa) was always rude
telling me I was “fat” and needed to eat less food.
Quit the shouting please, I don’t want to hear. These voices that are screaming deep within my ear.
Recount all your blessings, hold them close to you. Because the news of someone else is too bitter to be true.
So here I am in bed, tears soaked into my pillow case, leaving trails of salty flames down my ugly face.
To tell the truth, I’m blessed with a roof over my head, but haunted by the monsters that don’t live under the bed.
Unless something happens, and someone’s put on mute, I’ll keep hiding from those mean old things and continue to give you the scoop.
Very real and scary, showing their teeth.
They look okay on the outside, but it’s whats lying underneath.
Well I guess I could tell you a tiny bit more, but there’s a person watching, maybe outside my door.
Yes I’ll stay alive and yes I’ll talk to you.
I really need to thank poetry for helping me get through.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
I’m done with your garbage.

          Pack it up,
Tie it shut,
                      And. Take. It. Out.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 248
Over the Edge
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
This time it isn’t the edge of glory
no satisfaction,
not a happy end to this story.

Over the edge of a cliff.
That’s where she’ll jump,
no longer holding onto “what if.”

She hurts inside where you’ll never see.
That girl (she has a face)
and her name is me.

Jumping,, over the edge, this is her story.
Too bad it’s no longer the
“edge of literal glory.”
O.K
Jun 2018 · 137
Untitled
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
You have no idea how many times I’ve tried to send you a message.
How many times I’ve never sent one.

And you have no idea how much courage it takes for me to hit send.
It takes a lot to be able to hurt yourself all over again.
Jun 2018 · 130
Gotta catch those z's
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
I never would have thought that rolling over one last time to get one last wink would be so bad.

But see I find myself wishing every morning that I would've gotten up to capture some memories I could have had.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 140
The Knob to A New Door
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
you talk about me at your home.
“a lot”

I like you
“a lot”

This could hurt,
hopefully not a lot
O.K
Jun 2018 · 175
the answer
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
People may ask “why?” after all that’s happened. Why do I stand for him? Why do I do what I do?

Here’s the answer, I hope it’s the one you’re looking for:
I know him. I’ve been there for him as he’s done the same for me. I have had the privilege of getting to know him, along with the privilege of getting to love him. I’ve learned over the years that he tries not to show sadness. I’ve also learned that sadness is what consumes him way too often. I know that, while he’s in his room during the dark hours, he feels alone. Only his destructive thoughts for pitiful company. I know that his family throws hurtful daggers in his direction.

I know how that hurts. I know what it feels like to feel alone during those dark nights. I know what it feels like to wake up in the morning, drowning in blankets and warmth, but still feeling impossibly cold.

If I can help him feel less of that, less alone, less worthless, and less sad, I’ll do it. Especially for someone I love.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
today, somewhere where it smells of corn and fire, there was a man in the moon.

his smile was shining and there’s no denying the rhythm in his shoes.

everyone smiled while passing by and listen as I say there was a moonshine twinkle in his eye.

the old man with the clippy clappy tip tappin shoes, dancing under the moon for me and for you.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 359
henna
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
I got a henna tattoo.
It’s a cute infinity sign with “forever” written as part of it. it’s in cursive.

I got it because it fascinates me.
How forever is a small part of infinity and how neither should have to exist. Nothing lasts that long.

Except love and hatred.
I have the one that makes me sick to my stomach when you’re sad and I can’t fix it.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 231
vodka in a water bottle
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
I’m under disguise, so you see right through me.
Kind of like clear *****, hiding in a water bottle.  
I hide, unknown by the foolish.
I wait to be desired upon.
Caressing the lips of the one that’s drunk on me, burning their hearts with embers destined to thrive into flames.
Coursing through their veins, in their blood, slowly poisoning them with my sickening sense of addiction.
Giving them a fun time for now as I pretend to be something else,
and I’ll save them a special headache for later, when they wake up and realize that it was me in disguise all along.
O.K
this is literally just me doodling with words much like a child would doodle on paper. It’s messy and beautiful in its own special way.
Jun 2018 · 142
cutting edges
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
let me throw myself into this pile of thorns,
the ones among the relationships I couldn’t keep, but wanted to.

let me lay upon these knives,
recently sharpened to carve “not enough” in various phrases on my skin.

let me dive into this sea of broken glass,
the shards of mirror that reflect what will never be mine.



and all of this I seem to do willingly,
every. single. time.
O.K
Jun 2018 · 265
donut trail
Olivia A Keaton Jun 2018
today, we went on the donut trail in Butler, Ohio.

I ate too many.
O.K
May 2018 · 159
oh no
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
and it started among sidewalks and watermelon under the shaded sun.

next thing I knew we were passing notes in English laughing because it was so much fun.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
You can think of someone every coming and going second that you’re awake. Every moment you’re conscious your mind can be overrun by them.

But darling, when they consume your dreams, your unconscious brain, that’s when you’re *******.
O.K
Your conscious mind is the one that is able to filter and even try to hide thoughts. When they show up in your unconsciousness, you know you’re *******. You know you love them.
May 2018 · 178
that green shirt
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
I love so many things about you.
I dare not list them all.
I love the way you smile,
but it’s causing me to fall.

I love your eyes,
I want to hear about what they’ve seen.
But I really love that shirt you wear,
the one that’s army green.
O.K
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
I love you. I’m scared to love you but I’m ready to love you. And I do.
O.K
May 2018 · 170
counting sheep
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
I haven’t been sleeping lately.

One.

You’ve flooded my thoughts.

Two.

You’ve stolen my dreams.

Three.

But tonight, I want to count my sheep.

Four.

Tonight, I want to forget it all.

Five.

And just this once,

Six.

I want to forget you.

Seven.

But I want to see you again in the morning.
O.K
May 2018 · 131
He Will Never Read This
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
tonight, but not just tonight, I think about
all I’ve done for you. Then, I think of what you’ve done for me too. The only difference is that tonight, I write them down. Maybe it’ll help me let go.

When she abused you.
I was there, on your side, but subtly.
I was crying for your hurt, because you try to show zero emotion.
I was lying awake thinking of how badly I wanted to erase all of your problems and replace them with smiles.

When your dad was so awful.
When his words hurt, I was there to declare them lies. I was there to reassure you that you would never become him. I remember tossing around in my bed wanting to hug you as you cried. You never cry.

When you doubt yourself.
It’s too often. But hey I’m there. I’m no good at it, but I try my hardest to show you that you’re worth it. That you, jay, can make it. And I still believe you can.

Now, if you’ve read this far, fellow poets, you may believe that I’m insane. Insane, not for loving my best friend, but for giving him time and effort that I do. Well, continue reading.

When I was in love.
He was absolutely the wrong person, and you told me. You told me that I deserved real love, you also told me that I wouldn’t get it from him.

When I cried about everything. At once.
You were there to listen, you always, always made time to listen to my problems. If you couldn’t find advice, you just talked to me. You gave me hugs when we were in person. You listened which is more than anyone else can say.

When I wanted to die.
Yes, wow. Okay I’ve wanted to die. I wasn’t taking my medicine, selfish of me because you always ask if I had. I wanted to simply not exist. Then there you were, there for me like you’ve always been. Dare I say you saved me? Yes because you did.

That’s complicated because you said to me:
“Please Olivia, for me”
you did something great for me by asking me to do something for you.
It was the nicest favor yet.
Thank you and I love you as I have for years.
O.K
May 2018 · 165
Behind The Scenes
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
“She’s so fat and gross”
but behind the curtain,
she never eats,
or if she does, she throws up.

“His skin is all scarred up”
but he spent time on the stage,
for you, for me
for the entire country.

“Look at her bruises, they’re so nasty”
behind the scenes,
where none of you see,
her family beats her.

Please please think of what you say before you say it. You can so easily make or break someone’s entire world.
O.K
May 2018 · 328
the struggle
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
everyone asked why I wore that little, pretty, black dress to school today.

(with the too lilac shoes)

“what’s the occasion?”
or
“you look so pretty today, you never wear dresses! what’s special about today?”

come close, I’ll tell you the special secret about today:
Olivia didn’t want to put on pants this morning.
O.K
sometimes I’m just not feeling pants, ya know?
May 2018 · 143
good golly miss molly
Olivia A Keaton May 2018
it’s hopeless because he likes Kaidin
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