Liv - Hello Poetry

Liv Jun 2014

;

i want to be with you.
i want to spend my mornings staring into your eyes
i want our bodies to make sparks just like we used to
i want to listen to your laugh and see you smile
i want to fall asleep to the sound of your voice
and your soft kisses at the nape of my neck
i want to listen to your favorite songs
dance like idiots and smoke underneath a blanket
i want to grow old with you
and see you change into the man
i always knew you were
more than anything,
i want you to be happy
i want you to live
i want you here
you're my sweet sweet sunshine.

i can't write anymore. i just miss you more than anything in the entire ******* universe, please come home. i need you

Liv May 2014

symphonies

words roll off your tongue
in a Times New Roman font size twelve fashion
a series of commas and apostrophes
slowly forming a catastrophe
a concoction of letters melting together
into sentences i'm trying to forget.
The tone in your voice with the
heart beats ringing in my ears
produce a sound I never wanted to hear
white noise kicks in,
maliciously feeding off of my insecurities
you turned me into a host
for your parasitic dreams
you are not a monster
and I am not the victim
but we'll play the parts
because it's all we've ever known

Liv May 2014

suffocate

numb
my heart beats ring in my ears
with each beat proving that something's wrong
and i can't feel my bones
or my key strokes

my words don't roll off my tongue
i don't sound human anymore
i'm feeling my feet lift off the ground
i'm screaming your name
but it's a muffled cry, 1,000 miles of soaked eyes
and dried up tears on my cheekbones

my heart beats are sporadic
beating with my flickering eyelids
my footsteps are heavy
and i don't have you
to lighten my cloudy vision

Liv May 2014

fox boy

i don't care how many times they tell me
that you're poison
i have never felt a more passionate love
than I felt with you
when your cold hands touch my skin
i warm you up,
you send shivers down my spine

you'll always be my heavy breathing
my short breaths
exhaling a comfort that lies somewhere in between

i will never love anyone like i love you.

Liv May 2014

mourning birds

taking a vow of silence
walking through the trees
my footsteps move in rhythmic pattern
that follows the melody of the mourning birds
a sound that echoes through the trees
leading me to the bird
that mourns for its own death
in the background a sun sets
and the music stops

what a beautiful way to die

Liv May 2014

notes

my lungs feel as if there's never enough air

like my tears
                      are
                            g
                               r
                                 a
                                 d
                                u
                              a
                            l
                            l
                             y
                               filling out my chest
and suffocating my lungs
all because i'm too afraid to be without you
and i'm too afraid to try

Liv May 2014

my life without you

he loved drugs so much             he              into
                                          that           turned        one.
my precious little pill
      filled with all these chemicals
    that swim in my mind
  and give me something to be happy about

...

                  but he's stuck in my bloodstream
                                                        and I can't get rid of him
         no matter how many times you tell me
                               he's just no good for me

i guess that makes me the addict then,
endlessly wanting more of his heavy breathing and fruitful mind

i'm hooked
and being away
from his comforting hold is bittersweet

oldish