So you did what you did
And here we are
I am forever broken
And you seem so far

You want to heal my heart
The one you filled with hate
You want me back
But it’s far from too late

So the least you can do
Is just...this
Tell me about her
The one that you kissed

The one who gave you
Everything I could not
Is she really the reason
We always fought?

Tell me about her
What does she wear?
How does it feel
Running your fingers through her hair

Go ahead, you can tell me
How does she smile
Did she make you laugh?
Make you last for a good while?

How does it feel
Brushing her skin
Is it soft like mine
Does it hold passion within

Does she smell like flowers
Like you always said I do
Do you know her inside and out
Like I thought I knew you

Does she get excited
When a good song comes on
Do you actually sing with her
When she sings along?

Does she ever
Just want to dance
Did you actually dance with her?
Did you ever get the chance?

Does she burn holes through your eyes
When you make a dumb joke
Is her heart
One you ever would have broke?

Just one last question,
I promise its the last one I’ll ever ask you...

When you looked into her eyes,
Did you ever see me?
I’m sorry if I ever got in the way
Don’t worry now. You are free.

You may think I’m weird
For staring
Staring at the wall
The floor
Or that imaginary spot in the air

But I’m not

I’m watching something
Something so much more


A movie

A string of scenes
Of my life
Of what happened
What I wish happened
What I wish didn’t
What I dream will happen
What’s actually going to happen
What I want
What I need
What I’ll have
And what I won’t have

What I could’ve had
What I let go of
What was taken from me

What I’m left with

Left with nothing
Nothing to go for
Nothing to hold on to

I’m trying so hard
To look for something to grab
A reason to keep me hanging on

Keep me
Or I’ll should leave

Okay.

Here we go.
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Yes.
I'll add them up.
Yes,
I'll check in
Every
Single
Day

Yes,
I'll force it out
When I've backed down
To get
"Back On Track"

And then
When I go too far
I'll put on
The cover ups
To hide
what's not there

So cold
So chilling
Was that room
Frigid to the bone
When exposed

So hot
So scalding
Was that water
Enough to smell burning skin
But it never seems hot enough
To burn away those memories

So dark
So confused
Shadows blended with the black
Is that cloud,
That one right there next to me,
Floating under the surface,
My burning hair
Or my blood

Every time this happens
I feel it
Right, here

Every time
What seems like a layer of warm linen
Grows over my heart

But I fear
Because the longer my heart's in there
It forgets
How to be exposed
Like before

And I fear that day
When all of this goes away
When all layers at a time
Are ripped apart
And there
Lays my exposed heart

What a shame it is
That I expect that day
But expecting the worst
Is the way

I watch.
And I stare,
I gaze upon you as the sunlight's
rays of gold,
Shine down on your ill, fair skin
And reveals the stark contrasted hills
Upon your cheeks

It pains me
As I ever so desire
To offer you the land
The soil
Through which you so greatly need
To thrive
And fill in the great distance
From the bottom to the top of your hills
But for now,
Exist
As much as you can
Under the sun's limited energy
As a fragile flower does

And it pains me so
To watch, as the months go by
And the castes shadows
Beneath your every bone
Sinks
And falls deeper into darkness

Willowy
So small
The non-existent
Kind of tall

Shadows
Of bone
Darkening
Her fair tone

Weak
Yet alive
Just enough sun
To thrive