I watch.
And I stare,
I gaze upon you as the sunlight's
rays of gold,
Shine down on your ill, fair skin
And reveals the stark contrasted hills
Upon your cheeks

It pains me
As I ever so desire
To offer you the land
The soil
Through which you so greatly need
To thrive
And fill in the great distance
From the bottom to the top of your hills
But for now,
Exist
As much as you can
Under the sun's limited energy
As a fragile flower does

And it pains me so
To watch, as the months go by
And the castes shadows
Beneath your every bone
Sinks
And falls deeper into darkness

Willowy
So small
The non-existent
Kind of tall

Shadows
Of bone
Darkening
Her fair tone

Weak
Yet alive
Just enough sun
To thrive

For anything
I am there
You need me
You have my care

In no time
I give you my hand
No waiting around
I'll help you stand

But when I'm battling
Stuck in the black
Where are you
Please, come back

I just need a little
Help, I think
Pull me out
Before I sink

But you just say
"I don't know"
But, I know you do
So why so low?

Why won't you please
Please just try
I don't understand
You tear the tie

But...






I think...

I'll ask this crow.
This dark black bird
He'll know

He tells me
All I need
Drains my blood
Does the deed

He's tapped in
To my own head
I put him there
By the brain he is fed

This is what I have
Since you never tried
I brought him out
No longer will he hide

I know
I've made a mistake
gotten my hopes up
hope is so fake

I want it gone or else
it'll hurt so bad
want to **** hope
the hope that I had

but I will always have
it won't leave me alone
it's already taking me apart
if only I had known

you can't stab hope
hope can't be shot down
tried crying till it burns
but hope doesn't drown

no no, you have to wait
what a joke
hope only kills itself
hope will have a stroke

until then, it waits
feasts on your pain
eats you to the bone
sanity it will drain
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hang in there
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Walking with you
Through the grass
Just for a few
Before you pass

Though the sun's rays
I said I'd stay strong
Squinting eyes of tears
We only have so long

Would it be better
Not knowing you were to go
But it's too late
I already know

So now we walk
Last moments together
I'll be okay
You can't stay forever

But deep in your eyes
I watch them turn grey
Gripping your hands
As they slip away

Yeah, I'm fine
I will always tell you
Never believe me
It's the only lie that's true

I'm surrounded by light
I try to keep it on
But up in here
It's already off, it's gone

I never knew
It'd be this hard
Every time I'm alone
The wound is etched and scarred

I wish I could tell you
I don't think you know
The rip, it tears
Every time you go

I reach out
I'll go above and beyond
But it only pierces deeper
When you don't respond

But don't worry
No burden to you
This isn't your problem
I just wish you knew

For now, I keep my hands out
I'm capable of keeping control
Arms stretched fingers spread palms up
Waiting to be grabbed, by just one soul

But the longer I wait
The older time grows
I. Keep. Sinking. Down.
Where insanity shows