All I could do was cry
All these memories a loud mess in my head
Broken promises I'd rather forget
His eyes his smile his everything
Everything we had is down the drain
Every kiss we stole a impression in my brain
Nothing hurt me more than losing the man of my dreams
And all I could do was cry
Body against the door holding my unsteady feet
Makes me remember the time you made me dance even though I fell over my own feet*

The memories hit me like a wave
All I could do was cry
I'm losing the man I thought I'd never lose
Teardrops falling silently over my cheeks
And I know this time nothing can be fixed

Mirror, mirror on the wall am I skinnier then them all?
Am I not? Well that's too bad cause I will have to skip a few meals after all
Lovely collar bones and thin wrist
Thin legs like cara please
A collarbone like miley please
A thigh gap so I can feel pretty
Even if I have to lower my calories

Don't you see everything my eyes is showing me is fat and I have to lose it to be perfect
Don't you know I'd die for perfection?
The hunger pains is cheering me on
Maybe I'll stick my finger down my throat

Every night I cry myself to sleep
The scale said I picked up weight
Looks like I'll have to cut again
Punishment is the only way I'll learn
Don't eat or you'll get burned
Perfection is on my brain
Thin girls on the street is my motivation

In cAse I don't get to tell you the words that dwell in my soul
I've loved you since the moment we met
Your smiled took over my dark world and silently and innocently I fell in love with every Aspect of the person you Are
This is the letter I'm writing to you
You might never see it
But my breAth will linger on your lips and I know you'll tAste it every time you kiSs Another

This is A letter full of words of love
A letter you'll never get to see
Its filled with my hopes... And dreAms
Every memory of you And me
How I wish your body wAs wrApped Around mine And our body entwined with eAch other
I miss the wAy you trAced my skin and every inch burned where your fingers wAlked
Now every memory is A blur

People talking but they don't hear my cry
Maybe they just don't want to hear what I'm trying to say or maybe I'm just not speaking loud enough
Laughing feels like a chore
Crying is a daily habit like breathing
I plead insane to my own ruthless thoughts
Abusing me like I was nothing
Maybe I was nothing

I find myself in the darkness everyday
So I became the darkness
And I enjoy my pain
Maybe I'm a *******
Maybe I'm a fragile little girl that got used to all the abuse
My pillow know all my secrets
I whisper 'shhh' to all my teddy bears
I wish someone could save me but I'm too deep in to even help myself
No turning point I'm just a helpless little girl stuck in reverse

It wasn't long before the emptiness consumed her life
The silence knocked on her door calling
And she opened up with grieving relief
Every word she ever uttered was ignored kicked away like a pebble
Wishing wales never seemed to help
Sadly staring at the moon and the silence feels infinite
Crying out for the moon to help
Thinking it would swoop down and rid her of this lonely non existing life that has no meaning to her
Longing to be held by someone who would notice the pain behind her words
Someone who would notice when she stopped speaking
Seeking solace in her books cause its the only love she'll ever get
Crippling sadness took over her life like a dark cloud
Nothing bounded her to this life so she'll just take her own

You said I'm the one you think of on your lonely nights
And even when I'm sleeping next to you
You said you miss my dark brown eyes
everything is falling Apart
And I'm falling like a shooting star
Crash and burn
And I destroy everything in my way
And there is no return

You made me feel better and made me believe I was going to be okay
Ashtrays full of cigarettes you promised you would never go back there
But I know its my fault, I made you like this
Everything I do is a step closer to the end of you, US

You said you'd never leave after everything
And still you are here
Now its all fading
And everything is worse and our light of love is burning low
I'm liable to sink us both
You called me a beautiful tragedy but I can see the hurt behind your smile
Its my fault and I'm sorry
I know its taking a toll, so why don't you go
Maybe someday we'll meet again my lonely moon this pack was never meant for two
And I'll meet you in my dreams and remember who you used to be